Once in a while, I'll recall the things he told me before. Yet up till now, I'm still confused as to whether the feelings he said he had for me was true at that time.

I dunno why I insisted it was just a joke back then and chose not to believe it. However, part of me was hoping it wasn't just a trick played on me. I seriously wonder how things would have turned out, if we had taken things a step further.

Maybe then the relationship we have now wouldn't be as it is now.....
There are too many "what ifs" in life......

Such a slow slow week

This week passes so slowly... It's only Thursday. Not even a Fri. Maybe I'm too looking forward to the weekend, tat's y it's so slow. I wanna watch fireworks on SAT! HURRY!

Christmas is Over

Christmas is over.... Now awaiting the next PH which is New Year's Day.... haha! Another Mon off... No need work. Hehe! My colleague good ah... Take MC today. So now only me in the office alone. Blog a bit first then carry on work. This week is gonna be a busy week for sure....

U know... Sometimes, happiness can be so easily achieved yet sometimes, it seems impossible. This Christmas, happiness was what I had. It is so simple to keep me happy. Friends all gathered for a meal, sharing jokes, playing monopoly (of course being the winner makes me happier. Hehe!) Hopefully I can have more of such Christmas in time to come.

What makes this season more joyous is that I had another wonderful dream. I dreamt of my favourite guy, Xie Ting Feng! Wahahahhaa! Can't remember wat exactly was in the dream though but confirm is something nice. Haha! Cause i know I woke up wanting to carry on sleep some more. Lol! This is the first time in my life I ever dream of him leh. Even though I like him so much. Hmm..... Dun understand why oso. Does this mean I dun like him enough? Hopefully this won't be the 1st and last time. Though it's only a dream, it's still nice to meet him in it. Haha!

It's gonna be the end of the year soon. Have been pondering what have gone on in this past year. Though it's only a short period, much seems to have happen. I've went thru lots of ups and downs. I've lost some and gain some. Again, I think this is part and parcel of life. It chanced upon me that during the past few days that instead of regreting the wrongs I did and harping on the past events, wouldn't it be better to do everything right at present? I know it's easier said than done, but I really do hope I can do it. I guess I've got enough of living in the past. The more I fall into it, the harder it will be for me to crawl out.

This will be my New Year's Resolution, "Embrace the present. Forget the past" Wish me luck.... *smiles*

I was at this building... running.... I seems to be running from something... or rather... someone. There was another girl with me. Quite pretty, in white dress. We kept running. Suddenly a guy appeared in front of us. He looked eerily familiar.... like the "Gao Han" in "Ba Hao Dang Pu" He was holding a gun pointin at us. He said, "See where else u all can go." But from his eyes, I could see that he din really want to kill us but it seems he had no choice.

The girl and me started to run away and somehow we lost each other. I ended up hiding behind a cupboard in a room. At that moment, the guy with the gun came in, looking for me... He din see me, but from my position, I could see him clearly. All of a sudden, another man appeared behind the first man (we name him "Gao Han" lol) but Gao Han dunno. The other man aimed a gun at him. Instinctively, I rushed out and push Gao Han to the floor, saving him from the gun shot. I din know y i save him, the man who was suppose to kill me, but i just did.

He grabbed my hand and started running....

"Why did you save me?" He ask while running.
"I had to..." I replied breathlessly.

For tat moment, it feels as though we are bound by something magical. Fate probably....

Having shake of that guy, Gao Han turned to me and said, "You have to go. It's dangerous here. I can't let anything happen to you."

"Thought u wanted to kill me?"

"No.... I din wan to, but i had to. Now I can't bear to......"

Looking up at him, I wanted to say, ................... I din have the chance to say it.... I was waken by my alarm.

I woke up.

Lots of feelings stirring my heart. Was the dream jus a fanatsy of my subconcious mind or is it something more? Forbidden love always seems to be sweeter.....

Jas got me N70

He is just so sweet.... I told him to get it for himself, yet in the end, after buying it, he says he dun wanna use.... He says he prefer using 7610 (my old phone again). He gave it to me as a christmas present.... But then everyone thought I was the one who made him get it for me... AIyo.....

Make me feel guilty oso...

I'm gonna take lotsa nice nice pic with the N70. It's really good and I love the camera cause it's really clear.... ha...

Was watching a show few days back... It was a scene showing a couple getting ROM and the vows was being read to them. I was listenin to the exact content of the vow and suddenly a thought came over me. "How many people actually listen to the content of the vow and strive to abide by it?"

Why are people so frivoluous about marriage? Is is because the people nowadays being so highly educated that they have lost their own individuality? They have forgotten or lost the ability to know what they actually want? Tat's y after marriage, they always feel that it's nt the man they want, or that's not the kind of life they are looking for?

Is it the man at fault or is it the woman? Most people says both party gets a fair share of blame which I feel it's true. In a marriage, both parties have to make the effort to make it work.

Anyway.... let's hope I'll be able to abide by the vow when I have the chance to get married one day.

Another Day at Work

So it's another day at work. Meeting Shirley in a while. Suppose to meet her at 7pm in Orchard. But she's still in the office. Haha! So I decided to blog first before travelling down. If not, when I reach Orchard early, I'll tend to shop and end up buying and spending unecessarily again. *tsk tsk*

Results were out just now. Was rather anxious about it. Worried that I might fail my marketing but guess wat? I passed everything. So now I can officially declare, I've finished my course. Now I only nd to wait for my convocation. But tat's like still pretty long... Next aug / sept. Hmm... how would I look in that..... that... wat do you call that? The robe which I will wear to receive my certificate... Er...

Hmm... Must take lots of photo. It's a once in a lifetime thingy. Ha!

Think Shirley is almost done..... Gotta make my way to orchard now....

Is it happening?

Saw his photos this morning.... Brought back a sudden wave of memories back in poly days. I had almost forgotten about those feelings.

Now... they say might hire him. Means I would be seeing him everyday at work???? How would it be like? Will it be wierd? No confirmation yet.... See how things turn out. Maybe in the end, he might not wanna join the company? Just maybe....

Da Vinci Code - Best Book Ever

I jus finished a damn good book. I'm so so so impressed with the author.... Dan Brown... and yes... I'm talking about the book, "The Da Vinci Code". Ok ok... I know I'm so slow. Probably half the world has read the book and here I am... having just finished it. But well, I read it.

I think if I can choose to be another person for a day, I would want to be Dan Brown, so that I know how his thinking is like. The plot in the book is impressive. Unless it is based on a true story, it is difficult to gel the facts with fiction so perfectly, nt to say the codes there.

However, it is quite a statement made with that book cause it seems to flip over traditional Christians belief and also a major part of satanism. For example, it was mentioned that the pentagle / pentagram which is traditionally known as a symbol for the devil, is actually a symbol of the feminine goddess like Venus. Wat surprises me most was the sex ritual. Most people are familiar with it being a satanic ritual, yet it was said to be a way for men to connect with god thru the act. And this is a very ancient important ritual used by the pagans.

Yet, all these ends up being associated with the devil because the Christians launched a smear campaign stating tat these are acts of the satan. Isn't it hard to belief?

But as I read it, I can't help but feel it does make sense. All was explained very clearly with the historical background explained. So how does this makes the church look? And so is there really a Satan?

Hmm.... I think it all leaves to each individual to sort out what they believe in.....

Blinded by emotions, unsure of what lies ahead

I plunged in...

Making effort with every step I take

Finally seeing light ahead....