Actually I dun really know what I wanna blog about tonight. Just feel like sitting in front of this computer and reflect for a while. Reflect on life, on friends, on what is happening around me......
As time passes, people move on either from the happiness or from the unhappiness. We all just move on. Recently there has been a phrase that is commonly use at my office - "Going through motion" This has become a very gray area for me. A lot of things that I have been doing seems to be "going through motion", there's no time to think, just do it... and get through it. Yet it's not the best thing. Not only work, even personal life sometimes feels like I'm just "going through motion". How many people can actually have the luxury of time and energy to seriously think thru each and every single thing that they wanna do before actually doing it? Maybe that's how life passes by so quickly.
I lament life. Lament how fast almost 25yrs of my life has passed.... Wtf have I done in this 24+ yrs. Have I had achievement? Anything that I am proud of? Anything tat satisfy my poor soul? What happens for the next 25yrs? What will I have done? What will I become? Lots of friends around me are all moving to the next stage of life, some going to be Mrs or have already become Mrs and some already mummy. Happy for them. =) I hope when tat day comes for me, I'll happy too that my decison is right. It does feel a bit scary transcending from one life to another. Nervous.... hehe! Confuse at the same time. Somehow I dun feel very secure cause work seems really uncertain. I can't decide exactly is this job what I wanna do. And if I decides to go on to do something else what do I want to do. Then it will be another transition period of trying to get everything settle and all. Sometimes I really wonder if I shld wait....
Haiz.... so many things to consider.... Dun wanna think le.... Go slp. Lolx!
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Saturday, March 24, 2007
After a Long While... ...
There was suppose to be a lot of things that I wanted to blog but haven't had the time for it. And now after a long lapse, I dun really feel like blogging the happenings in the past few days.... or was it weeks.... Can't remember.....
I know I went out with Cheryl, Lyn and CW for dinner last week at this restaurant at Wheelock Place call "Sun with Moon" or is it "Sun and Moon". It's a super duper nice place with amazing good food. I had taken quite a few pics of the interesting presentation of the food but had deleted from my hp. So now.... no more pics to show...... I know that night I was very very tired cause I had been working like 12hrs the day before. Luckily Cheryl persuaded me to go. If not I would have missed out on the yummy food and the great comapany. =) That irritating R**** R**** Meeting event really tired the hell out of me man.
Another thing that I must mention is the Friday that I went over to Sinta's place to be her free part time nanny. Lolx! I really love her chubby and wierd daughter of hers(of course is wierd. Ever heard of a 2mths old baby who watches MTV channel?). So cute lor like a doll like tat. Very big size for her age!!!! She'll grow to bully all the guys around her, I bet. Wahahhaha!
Haiz... Between work and planning for "the occasion" plus going out and relaxing on weekends, I dun really hv much time to blog lor. Not like last time where I really will take the time to pen down my thoughts and feelings. Sianz... Starting to feel rather confuse towards my work also. Not sure do I really like what I am doing. Somtimes I seems to enjoy but yet sometimes I really feel like shouting out loud, " I hate my job!" Can't decide what I really want to do either. Like that how? Tell me how?
Super duper sianz... Looking forward to end of the year...... Dec hurry come!
I know I went out with Cheryl, Lyn and CW for dinner last week at this restaurant at Wheelock Place call "Sun with Moon" or is it "Sun and Moon". It's a super duper nice place with amazing good food. I had taken quite a few pics of the interesting presentation of the food but had deleted from my hp. So now.... no more pics to show...... I know that night I was very very tired cause I had been working like 12hrs the day before. Luckily Cheryl persuaded me to go. If not I would have missed out on the yummy food and the great comapany. =) That irritating R**** R**** Meeting event really tired the hell out of me man.
Another thing that I must mention is the Friday that I went over to Sinta's place to be her free part time nanny. Lolx! I really love her chubby and wierd daughter of hers(of course is wierd. Ever heard of a 2mths old baby who watches MTV channel?). So cute lor like a doll like tat. Very big size for her age!!!! She'll grow to bully all the guys around her, I bet. Wahahhaha!
Haiz... Between work and planning for "the occasion" plus going out and relaxing on weekends, I dun really hv much time to blog lor. Not like last time where I really will take the time to pen down my thoughts and feelings. Sianz... Starting to feel rather confuse towards my work also. Not sure do I really like what I am doing. Somtimes I seems to enjoy but yet sometimes I really feel like shouting out loud, " I hate my job!" Can't decide what I really want to do either. Like that how? Tell me how?
Super duper sianz... Looking forward to end of the year...... Dec hurry come!
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
Friday, March 02, 2007
Thursday, March 01, 2007
I had a really wierd dream last night..... It's wierd and something more but I dun really know how to describe.
In the dream I was back in my old flat at Bishan and with me was this ex bf of mine, let's just name him SL. He was in my room and somehow my mum knows of him and seems to really like him a lot. In actual fact, my mum has never seen him before.
My mum was like saying something about have a good time together before she left the room. SL played a song thru his hp and it was this tune which was very soothing and sensual. But I dun think I have ever heard of it in real life before. After a while, a hp sounded in my room and I realise it's my mum's hp. I read the msg in there and it was my aunt saying she's coming up to my place now. When I saw my aunt in the dream, I recognise her to be how she was 10yrs ago and along with her was also my mum looking 10yrs ago. So in the house, there was actually 2 mums. One current and one is my mum from 10yrs ago. I remember in the dream I felt surprised but din say anything. Then my aunt saw SL and asked, "Eh? What happened your that bf who came by during CNY?"
At that moment I realise in my dream that I had broken up with Jas and SL was like looking at me as if asking if that is true. So I gathered that in that dream, me and SL was probably having some kind of a rendevous lor...... Then when my aunt went out of the room I closed my door and stayed in the room cause SL was like pressing me to say if it's true that I had broken up with Jas and also I felt wierd to see 2 of my mum outside. Then my dad got angry with me for not going out to entertain guest and was scolding me like mad. So it was like a whole lot of commotion going on. In the dream I was crying cause I realise my r/s with Jas has ended and I just can't stop the tears.
I suddenly woke up in my dark room and realise...... I was in fact crying..... I didn't know why also. It's all like some kinda mystery story.... It's so fucking wierd.... Thinking back it seems everything in the dream is like a 10yrs ago thingy. My aunt and my mum appeared in the dream in how they were 10yrs ago and 10yrs ago, I was with SL....
Maybe it's my illness..... That's why the funny funny dream.... I don't know.
Talking about me being sick. I was like really fucking sick since Monday. Doc says it's some gastric flu thingy. I was like vomitting and lao saing all the while and couldn't eat at all. And I felt tired all the time. Was on MC for 2 days....
The good part about it all is that, I lost 3kg! There is a certain benefit afterall.....
In the dream I was back in my old flat at Bishan and with me was this ex bf of mine, let's just name him SL. He was in my room and somehow my mum knows of him and seems to really like him a lot. In actual fact, my mum has never seen him before.
My mum was like saying something about have a good time together before she left the room. SL played a song thru his hp and it was this tune which was very soothing and sensual. But I dun think I have ever heard of it in real life before. After a while, a hp sounded in my room and I realise it's my mum's hp. I read the msg in there and it was my aunt saying she's coming up to my place now. When I saw my aunt in the dream, I recognise her to be how she was 10yrs ago and along with her was also my mum looking 10yrs ago. So in the house, there was actually 2 mums. One current and one is my mum from 10yrs ago. I remember in the dream I felt surprised but din say anything. Then my aunt saw SL and asked, "Eh? What happened your that bf who came by during CNY?"
At that moment I realise in my dream that I had broken up with Jas and SL was like looking at me as if asking if that is true. So I gathered that in that dream, me and SL was probably having some kind of a rendevous lor...... Then when my aunt went out of the room I closed my door and stayed in the room cause SL was like pressing me to say if it's true that I had broken up with Jas and also I felt wierd to see 2 of my mum outside. Then my dad got angry with me for not going out to entertain guest and was scolding me like mad. So it was like a whole lot of commotion going on. In the dream I was crying cause I realise my r/s with Jas has ended and I just can't stop the tears.
I suddenly woke up in my dark room and realise...... I was in fact crying..... I didn't know why also. It's all like some kinda mystery story.... It's so fucking wierd.... Thinking back it seems everything in the dream is like a 10yrs ago thingy. My aunt and my mum appeared in the dream in how they were 10yrs ago and 10yrs ago, I was with SL....
Maybe it's my illness..... That's why the funny funny dream.... I don't know.
Talking about me being sick. I was like really fucking sick since Monday. Doc says it's some gastric flu thingy. I was like vomitting and lao saing all the while and couldn't eat at all. And I felt tired all the time. Was on MC for 2 days....
The good part about it all is that, I lost 3kg! There is a certain benefit afterall.....
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