It's another Monday again. So fast... another weekend gone.... Looking forward to Ms Sinta's wedding this coming Sunday.

Went over to her place on Fri to check out the dress that Ms Janice had kindly borrowed for me from her 大嫂. It fits nicely! And tat solves my problem. Joei, me and Janice also had a secret meeting at the balcony of Sinta's hse to discuss what we are gonna make Hoon do before we open the door for him to pick up Sinta on that day. haha!

Actually, poor Hoon. Marrying Sinta is already very hard on him.... Now, on his wedding day, he still gotta deal with us (the Jie Meis). Haha! You see, Hoon, Birds of the Same Feather Flock together. Lolx!

The highlight of that night was teaching Hoon to act like an Ah Beng so that he can go pick up Ah Lian girls. It seems like Hoon has a fetish for Ah Lian. Although Sinta qualifies as a Ang Mo Lian but Hoon prefers those traditional kind of Ah Lians. After being rejected "one too many" (Hoon, 2006) times, Hoon has decided to get a crash course from us. Joei and me taught him how to walk first. U know, those typical Ah Beng way of walking.... Legs open wide (as if their dick is too big), hands swing left, right, left, right at the back. Hoon tried his hardest to imitate but at the end, it seems like he's doing some kinda aerobics.

We taught him how to stand also, tapping the foot, shaking the entire body. Joei say he look as if he wants to pee. Haha! Oh well.... Hoon... it looks like you need to practice more. That was my first lesson. Complimentary. Should you need more lessons, do enquire with me on the course fee. Aiya... friend friend, can charge you cheaper one. Haha! I can get you a male coach if you want. He goes by the name Jason Beng...... haha!

Saturday, went for Guohua's ROM celebration with Jac, Jas, Kel, Eug, Adrian, Steven and Meow. Had a buffet dinner there before we proceeded to KTV. Long time no go sing song le.... Sat hor, KBox expensive leh. But 久久一次 lah.... Anyway, it was fun!

Here... I present to you. The 2 Singers of the Era!

That's Adrian and Eug.... Performing their 拿手歌。But I dun remember what song it was.

Me and Jac, 歌后 of the night! wahahahaha!

See how honoured Steven is to be able to take photo with me and Jac... Actually he look stoned. Not enought sleep ah. Btw, to all girls reading this.... he is single and available and his looks like tat guy from 5566, Wang Ren Fu. Interested hor, let me know leh. I'm be happy to do the intro.

This is another single and available boyfriend material, affectinately known as Meow. Lolx!

Last but not least, the next eligible bf material, Adrian!!! Erm... He's acting cute lor... 美少男！

We sang till 1plus am ah... before we proceeded for mahjong and well... it was more mahjong on Sunday too. Haha!

Alas, back to work.... zzzzzzzz...........

恋爱初体验

I had my first experience of a proper relationship when I was 13. Whatever that was before that, was jus "puppy love". Haha! Nothing serious. I was way too young then.

This guy, we name him, Jack was one year my senior in school. Knew him thru a classmate. Couldn't exactly recall who my tat classmate was. I was staying late in sch I think for my netball training and somehow, my group of friends and him started talking. For watever reason I cannot recall (or was it my birthday, he wanna sabo me), Jack got an egg and chase me around the whole school wanting to throw that egg at me. That's how we met.

Words started to get round that he likes me and I found him kinda cute. Not long after (thru nights of phone calls), we started out together. Whenever I had netball training on weekdays, he would wait for me, buy drinks for me and after that send me home. He was in Boys' Brigade and he had drills on Sats. I had netball trainings on Sat too. So after that, we would normally go for lunch at either the BK or KFC at Thomson Plaza. Once in a while, we will go watch some movies.

Relationships are a lot simple back then. Dating was also unpretentious. Having a meal, watching movies was happy enough for us. He was sweet. The most memorable thing that he had ever done was give me this very unique present on V-day.

He wrapped up an egg in a box with the words "Fate brought us together through this egg" written on it. That was the 1st time, a guy actually moved my heart. It's just somthing very very simple, yet means a lot. It's really the thought that counts.

Of course not everything is 甜甜蜜蜜的. We had our quarrels also. I remembered very clearly this incident that hurt me. But now when u come to think of it, it's quite silly. I had long hair back then and I never ever had it cut short while in sec sch. So one day, I dunno wat came over me, I went to the salon and cut it short. It was ugly... nerdy kind of ugly. But at the time mah, dunno it's nt nice. I went to sch and show it to Jack. Guess wat? He laugh at me along with one of his friend and sort of avoided me in sch for a few days. So pissed! 2 of my good friends, Yenling and Xueyan told him off even. Haha!

Anyway, I know he's sorry for that incident cause many years after that, he wrote me a letter, saying he had always felt bad. And that he was so silly not to have appreciated the days when he was with me to make the relationship worked out. For all we know, we might still be together? No? I oso dunno....

In what ever case, we din break up because of that incident. We broke up cause..... er... i oso not sure why.... Maybe cause we started to drift apart? He started to hang out more with this other guy and this girl he claims he's friend was after. I din believe him and accused him of having feelings for tat girl. So I initiated the break up. For a while after that in school, we din talk and I hated that girl like mad (tat girl looks like Gong Li, by the way). But now, Jack and I are still good friends. We still hang out some times....

So there.... that was my 初恋。 Lolx!

Bernie Vs Toffee

Hey... Look here! This is my buddy-at-work. He's Bernie the Bear!!!!

"Hi! I'm Bernie!"

I bought this bear yesterday at Barang Barang during lunch. He looks so cute on the shelf, I can't resist but brought him back to office. The other reason is that Bernie looks like my dog.... Toffee.

This is Toffee..

Toffee and I seems to have an affinity for each other. I saw her when she was only 3mths old. Nancy sold her to me... Her dog gave birth to 2 puppies and Toffee was one of them. When I stepped into the room tat day, Brownie (her name at that time) immediately strutted to me. Nancy said at that time, she normally won't one. Conclusion, she likes me! haha!

And the next most fascinating thing is tat, she was born on 15 Aug. Means hor, same birthday as Jas. Haha! So hor, see? Very 有缘 hor?

She's been here for 2yrs plus le and she has brought much laughter to the household. My dad absolutely loves her. He is so much more willing to walk a distance to buy food / snacks for her rather than for any other members of the hse. Haha! Although we are nt sure whether is Toffee afraid of the dark, whenever we go out, we will leave the lights on for her.

Now hor... cannot imagine life without her. Sometimes just look at her running around in the hse, will feel very happy le. Dunno why oso.....

Haha!Gotta stop now.... Bernie bear is asking me to get back to work le.... Lolx!

My Weekend

Back at work on a Monday....

Had a normal weekend jus like any other. Nothing special.... Woke up late on Sat. Was suppose to accompany Yenling to the salon to do her perm, but by the time I got up and changed, she was done already. Haha! Went to meet her anyway. Now we both got nice curls. hehe!

Can see from the photo my eye red red hor... Sianz... Sunday wake up eyes red and swollen again. End up din make it to Sinta's hse.

Anyway, another pic taken with Yenling with her new hairstyle.

Haha! So cool. She went to the same salon I went to. It's just a neighbourhood salon but it's very good. The lady boss very careful when she does rebonding, colouring and perming. So hor... feel more 安心 when she meddles with the hair. And most importantly, her charges are reasonable.

Me and Yenling went to eat. Actually is she and her sister eat lah. I no eat.... I ate at home le. But she and her sister are both starving after spending hrs at the salon. They no eat before they go mah. Lolx! After that, I went over to Jas place le lor.

Jas dad celebrating 50th bday. Ah Tan and Kel came over also. Jas dad and aunties cooked lots of delicious food for everyone. Caught a few cute shots of Maomao.

She kept looking out the window to see who's here. Haha! So cute!

Finally, her friend is here...... Lolx!

After the celebration, we went to watch Final Destination 3 with Jac, Adrian and Meow. It's one of those kinda teenage horror flick movie, but not bad lah. Jus tat everyone died in a very 夸张 way. The moral of the story is 要死的一定躲不过。Like Adrian say, 大难不死，必有后福 is fake de. Haha! Heard the FD2 is nicer leh. Must go find the VCD / DVD to watch.

Guess wat we did after the movie? Haha! Mahjong lor. Our favourite past-time. This time, I won money. Yeah! Haha!

Sunday hor... haiz... sianz ah. Suppose to go Sinta's hse, but cause of my stupid eye, din go. Missed out on the fun le. Hey girls, we try arrange another day can? Okie okie? When Hoon is nt around. So we can hv more outrageous fun. haha!

Know wat? Forgot which day hor, I dreamt that my teeth are falling out. Jus now I was in a bookshop, saw book on deciphering dreams. It says dreaming of teeth falling out signifies changes or transition to maturity (aiya i think it mean growing old lah). And the fear of teeth dropping means there's a resistance towards growing old. Wah lau! Means wat? I 怕老 meh? zzzzz......

Haiz... watever lah. Anyway, before I finish off this entry, one last pic... Jus wannt put it up cause it looks so cute. hehe!

怎么办

“在一样的空间, 有人结合, 有人被放弃, 有人想放弃别人, 有人什么都不想...
结合就一定快乐吗? 分手就是结局吗? 这全部都是真实吗？” (From Jason Bro’s Blog)

我在同样的一天，两个好友让我又两种相冲的心情。

一个兴奋的带我去看婚纱，在筹备她的婚礼，另一个却告诉我她要离婚。。。我的心，处于在七上八下的状态。顿时，对婚姻充满了疑惑。

两个人相爱，有必要结婚吗？而结了婚，感情淡了，变了，离开时一定的吗？那婚姻的定义又是什么？

Actually, I am more affected by the news of the divorce. I dunno why but I feel extreme sadness. Maybe just emotional…. I cannot bear to see couples who after so many years together, end their relationship. Dunno why oso….

世界上，每个人都有过着自己的生活，走着自己的路。 好不容易，两个人走到了交叉路，遇见了对方，认识了对方，这就叫做缘分。能够在一起， 更是一种奇妙的缘分。我觉得啊，应该好好地珍惜。

有时候，停下脚步，想一下当初为何会爱上对方，可能，或许，能找回一些当年的感情。

Suay Suay Suay - Part 2

Following the bus broke down incident 2 days ago, yesterday I was late for work I think most likely due to it. Think they got not enough bus as they brought the fault bus to repair so they actually do away with 1 slot, hence I gotta take a later bus.

Today, me is super duper late for work again. Look at the time of this posting. Yes... I jus step into the office.

Just before Lornie Road, tat stretch, jam like mad. To make matters worse, the bus I was in had a minor accident with a Matrix.

I oso nt sure wat happen. I was slping, suddenly I felt the bus jerk very hard. When I open my eyes, this black Matrix was like right before me. Really damn close. At first I thought din hit. But when the bus stop at the next traffic light, the driver (with his 2 friends) of the Matrix came and knock on the door of the bus driver and ask for settlement. I dunno wat the fuck they talk about lah.

All I know is, I'm late for work again. And this time, is really really very late.... Haiz....

Where did it all go?

For the first time, in terms of career and work, I feel lost.....

All the while, before I completed my degree or even way before that, I was clear what I wanted to do. Yet now, finally, officially stepping into the working society, I'm unsure of how it's gonna be.

Why is this so?

Robin is right. I seems to have lost my drive.... My drive to learn and my will to excel. I wasn't like this 3yrs ago. What happen? Am I too caught up in all the emotional baggage?

I can't go on like tat. I nd to be like how I was back then. The one who's sure and confident of what I need and what I want. The one who's filled with zest, motivation and drive.

I nd a rest.....

After tat, I'll carry on..... I'll be back..... I'm sure!

Suay Suay Suay

I damn suay.... Really suay.... Dog year really nt for me. 好不容易, this morning thought can be on time for work, end up bus broke down. Wah lau! See lah? Suay nt suay?

Think I 注定 late for work.

Damn sianz.....

Past and the Present

At a time when I was struggling with the past and the present, I saw the following words in an MTV.....

我无法找回过去遗失的记忆,

也无法留住现在美好的幸福.

未来的一切相信只剩下伤害.

我不知道怎样面对 过去 和 现在,

所以选择一个人的未来。。。

The words seems to have spoken what I felt. And I desperately wanted to make the decision of facing the future alone. I didn't.....

Maybe it was the fear of loneliness tat stopped me or perhaps, it was really the love in me, the love that I once felt so strongly. I couldn't give it up.

And now.... I'm glad I did not make tat decision. For now, the past seems to have slowly crawl out of me. Tears no longer well up in my eyes when I see familiar scenes or hear familiar names. Sure, my heart still skips a beat or two when sweet scenes of the past flashes thru my mind, but that sharp pain which was so unbearable then, is no longer there. My biggest regret, would be ending up no longer as friends. It isn't the way I wanted but I can't do anything about it. It isn't my decision..... Oh well....

Of course the future ahead is still blur and greyish but then, who can say they are really 100% sure of how life will be like in the future? We all have to work towards it.

For now, I am happy the way things are....... and I certainly hope it stays this way for a long long time......

To him, I wish him all the best. To myself, good luck..... =)

2 Days MC

Me... Have been on MC for 2days. All thanks to my super sensitive eyes. Ever since the previous eye infection, I have been super careful nt to wear my contact lens for too long but still kanna. Now my eyes all red and swollen. Not pretty le. =(

Wah lau... so mafan leh. Every hr gotta put eye drops. Some more the eye drop must be kept in the fridge de. And hor, each time after I put eye drops a while later when I swallow saliva, damn bitter sia. I think is the eye drop flow down to the mouth area. Wah lau. Damn er xin ah.

Doc advise me stay at home, cause might be infectious. Today is the 2nd day of MC le, but my eyes still as swollen leh. Doc say hor, if one week still like tat must go back see him le. Oh god! Please let me eyes recover. I wan to be Swee Swee. Lolx!

Ok ok... Stop here le. Cannot blog le... My eyes a bit pain after staring at the screen.... haiz... on my poor eyes.....

We were supposed to have a purple-themed lunch 2day at Sketches. But it seems like everyone had played Ms Janice out. She was the only one all decked-out in the royal colour of purple. Wah Lau! Even her undies was the same shade of purple as the dress she’s wearing. Well, she showed it to us…. Haha! Erm… Me? I had on my new purple mascara and purple Jwest heels. Sinta very the 勉强的 produce her small purple purse. And well, dear Joei forgot all about the theme and she appeared in black. Haha!

Had a nice pasta lunch. Been having pasta for the past 2 days (kenny rogers, pasta mania) ... Gonna fat die me le. But hor... nice lah... Pasta is one of my fav food.

Joei hor... she so troublesome leh. Eat beef steak, too cook cannot cause no blood, too raw oso cannot cause too bloody. The waiter change a total of 3 steaks for her ah. The waiter so nice hor, cause i think he interested in Joei. Haha! He came over when we finish our meal to ask for number on the pretense that his friend want it. Lolx! We never give lah.

However, Me and Janice concluded later that the waiter wanted Joei's number so that he can haunt her in the middle of the night to take revenge for making things so difficult for them. Haha! Joei ah Joei, next time be more careful when u go eat there ah. They might just poison you. Next time, request to cook the steak urself. Like tat no need mafan others.

Hmm.... Sunday's plan has been cancelled or rather postponed to the following week. Haiz... had been looking forward to it. Oh well.... good things are worth waiting for. haha.

Mouse Story

A simple story to share with all who reads my blog.....

A Mouse Story

A mouse looked through the crack in the wall tosee the farmer and his wife open a package.What food might this contain?" The mouse wondered.

He was devastated to discover it was a mouse trap.

Retreating to the farmyard, the mouse proclaimedthe warning.There is a mousetrap in the house! There is a mouse trap in the house!"The chicken clucked and scratched, raised herhead and said, "Mr. Mouse, I can tell this is a grave concern to you, but it is of no consequence to me.I cannot be bothered by it."

The mouse turned to the pig and told him, "Thereis a mouse trap in the house! There is a mouse trap in the house!"The pig sympathized, but said, "I am so very sorry, Mr. Mouse, but there is nothing I can do about it but pray. Be assured you are in my prayers."

The mouse turned to the cow and said "There is a mouse trap in the house! There is a mouse trap in the house!" The cow said, "Wow, Mr. Mouse. I'm sorry for you, but it's no skin off my nose."

So, the mouse returned to the house, head downand dejected, to face the farmer's mousetrap alone. That very night a sound was heard throughout the house -- like the sound of a mousetrap catching its prey.The farmer's wife rushed to see what was caught. In the darkness, she did not see it was a venomous snake whose tail the trap had caught. The snake bit the farmer's wife.

The farmer rushed her to the hospital, and she returned home with a fever. Everyone knows you treat a fever with fresh chicken soup, so the farmer took his hatchet to the farmyard for the soup's main ingredient. But his wife's sickness continued, so friends and neighbors came to sit with her around the clock. To feed them, the farmer butchered the pig.The farmer's wife did not get well, she died.

So many people came for her funeral, the farmer had the cow slaughtered to provide enough meat for all of them.

The mouse looked upon it all from his crack in the wall with great sadness. So, the next time you hear someone is facing aproblem and think it doesn't concern you, remember --when one of us is threatened, we are all at risk.We are all involved in this journey called life.We must keep an eye out for one another and make anextra effort to encourage one another.

When everything comes to a bottle-neck, everything seems to be at a stagnant stage and complicated. This is so stiffling. It's so suffocating.

When he said "no point rushing into it".... I caught the underlying meaning....

Maybe he's right... No point rushing into something we both are nt sure about. Yet my heart aches.....

Maybe it is just one of those kinda moods I'm feeling....

Can't Stand Senseless Remarks

There have been so much talks about the NYP girl recently and it seems to have created a big hoo-ha, even in the "blogosphere". I've seen the video and as the curiostity got the better of me, I did a search on the internet to see what others have been commenting about. I was shocked how some people can talk bad about people.

What disgusted me the most was this comment by some crazy guy. He said he has seen the girl a few times before (the video got circulated) somewhere (I suppose in sch) and had found her cute. Now that he has seen the video, the next time he sees her, he wants to ask how much she charges for a nite. I was like, "WTF!!!!" Jus because you know she is having sex with her bf, you assume u can approach her as if she is prostitute????? Wah lau! Use your brain lah! This is so ridiculous!

So what happens if this idiotic guy has a good friend who happens to be a female whereby he knows is having sex with her bf? Would he ask his female friend the same thing? Wau lau.... think can. Such a senseless comment and it's nt even funny.

Actually I kinda pity the girl lah.... Being exposed and all.... 吃亏了still must let people say this say that. I dun see any wrong on her part ah.... The only wrong thing she did was probably keeping the video in her hp. Aiya.... film already, ownself watch le delete mah. Still keep.... Doesn't she know that she might jus lose it anytime or even stolen? And see? This is the consequence. I guess it's her own stupidity that brought her down....

But hor... why does the spotlight have to be on the girl? Her bf's face oso on video mah. So how come no one interested in who he is? Why must focus all attention on the girl? So unfair! I guess this is Singaporean's conservative culture lah.

Oh well... watever tat has been done has been done... Sooner or later, this will become just another piece of old news. People will start to forget about it and talk about something else.

Still... give the girl a break!

A Very Spicy Lunch

Jus came back from lunch with Janice at Tiong Bahru Plaza. We had ramen at 别府。 It's the one where u can choose the spiciness of the soup - ranges from 1 chilli being the mildest to 8 chilli being the most most spicy.

I heard that Sinta had the one with 8 chilli last week when they went for lunch and even had an extra bowl of soup, so I gladly assume that it can't be realli tat spicy.... But i din hv the courage to order 8 chilli de, so i opt for half tat amt instead - 4 chilli. Wah Lau!!!!! Then I realise what a freak Sinta is. Cause hor, 4 chilli is already damn hot lor. Now my lips feels like 2 sausages on fire! The spiciness is so overwhelming until my head was spinning as I was eating it ah! First time in my life I ever ate something so hot. Phew! Sinta, 你真行!!! 8 chilli... imagine how very the spicy it is.....

I tried Janice's soup with 2 chilli and it is in fact rather hot le.... But overall, the ramen is nice lah.... I must go have it again. This time like Janice, I'm gonna jus take with 2 chilli. Haha! Scareded le..... lolx

As I am writing this entry. I wonder if Ms Janice has manage to got back to office. Cause hor, being the blur blur sotong, she actually took the wrong side of the train to go back office. Instead of heading back to Tanjong Pagar, she ended up at Redhill. Still can sms me and tell me it's nt her first time and probably might nt be the last. *faintz*

Please, I make an appeal to the public. Anyone who sees Ms Janice wandering at the MRT station, please step forward and ask her where she going and help guide her on the right train before she ends up somewhere else again. OMG... Janice, when will u ever learn? Lolx!

Lunch at Sketches

Went for lunch with my dear Janice and Sinta just now.... Aiyo... Finally after so many arrangements. Somehow, whenever we try to arrange lunch together, I always cannot make it de. However, today's lunch still lack of one person and tat is... "Big Foot Joei"! Haha!

Haven seen her for a long long time le... Yet she din join us for lunch today. So bad.... :(

Now I'm so super full with the delicious pasta all piled up in my stomach. Hmm..... In front of the comp now I feel like dozing off to sleep. zzzzzzzz....

Looking forward to next Sunday where me and Janice will be going over to Sinta's place for a relaxing Sunday. We've made plans to swim, laze around, drink wine and teach Janice to play mahjong (hehe! hopefully can win a bit of shopping money from her).

Sinta reminded tat we must lock all precious belongings in her room before we allow Janice to drink, in case she walks away with any one of our bags again. Haha! This time maybe I shld pretend to be drink and walk out of Sinta's hse with a carton of her branded bags! hahahaha!

Eh... Janice... maybe we can collaborate? hahahhahaha! So exciting!

爱

是不是爱情一旦久了，就会慢慢的消失？满满的淡化， 成了只有感情的存在？那当年的甜蜜和情感都去了哪里呢？

我一直以来很执著的相信， 爱情是会有天长地久的，是能够维持，能够像酒一样，过越久，就会越浓。但是， 在这世上活得越久，随着年龄的增加，渐渐的体会到了人生的残酷。很多事不是我想象中的那么完美无缺。。。一段感情不会有天长地久，夫妻不会白头到老，这些都显示了人生的无奈。

我在爱情方面，一直寻找完美， 要求完美，其实是很过分也是很勉强的要求。但，如果不这么做，不就等于没有努力的尝试过吗？这样的话，将来不是会后悔吗？

其实啊，爱情吗，不一定要爱得你死我活，轰轰烈烈的。只要两个人，心里有数，知道彼此真的爱过对方，那也应该就够了。与其一直担心未来会社怎样的，不如把握现在所拥有的一切， 真心地对待彼此。接下来的事，就顺其自然吧。。。

俗语说，“不在乎天长地久，只在乎 。。。。”

A Blissful Weekend

Was supposed to go for a drink on Fri. But end up at the very very last min, one of them not going, so well... plans cancelled.

For a long long time since dunno when, I din play mahjong on a Fri. Jas came to pick me up from office at bout 9plus then we went for dinner, hang around for a while before he went fishing. I din wanna tag along with him so I went back home to watch VCDs. It's so nice to spend an evening with Jas taking our own sweet time to have dinner, chat and basically jus enjoy each other's comapny without having to rush off to anywhere else after that. It's been a long long time.....

Jas and I went shopping on Sat to get what I've been wanting.... The Gucci card holder that I wanted.... the one tat I saw when I went shopping with Kel the other day. It comes with a nice trinklet... so cute. =)

To make up for Valentine's Day, in a way, Jas bought it for me. So I declare this as my Valentine's Day present for 2006. Lolx!

Sometimes he is really so super sweet.....

Was supposed to meet Sinta and Hoon for dinner de before going over to their place for a social mahjong session. However, they forgot that they have an dinner appointment. So me and Jas settled our own dinner instead. We ate at Pepper Lunch. It's nice leh... but not cheap. "Pay so much still gotta cook ur own food" was what my dad complained about the previous time we ate there. Still, I enjoyed it....

Haven't played mahjong with Sinta and Hoon for quite long le, but geez... Sinta's luck is still so good. Wah! Almost every time she gets lots and lots of "flowers" de... and she gets to win. Me leh? Down on luck, get "flowers" but never game de. Some more got one time, realise short of cards. haha! Then Hoon even worse, he realise he short of 2 cards.... Lolx! So end up Sinta wins again. Hey Hoon.... Next time we ought to remind each other more huh.....

So there.... it was my weekend! A weekend well spent.... A very enjoyable one indeed....

这几天，心情总是闷闷的。。。 感觉上很像什么都做不好。就像站在十字路口，不知道要往左还是往右。

因为心情差，结果一直和他吵架。 总是为了一些有没有的零碎小事而争吵。 真讨厌！

希望接下来，日子会好一点。难道狗年真对出生于狗年的人不好吗? 能捱过一年吗？

It was Valentine's Day.....

Although I dun expect any elaborate celebration but the least he could do was spend more time with me.....

But? He went to play mahjong.... How nice is that? =(

Some people can be so brainless

I was at one of those chinese dinner for temple de... those outdoor kind de... Saw a very tiny bird. Very cute..... It looks like those kinda fake bird tat are put as decoration on Ying Liu tree during CNY, The size is also exactly the same as those. It was hopping around on the crowded floor...

My dad was afraid tat someone would step on it, so he carried it and put in near a grass patch. The bird stayed there throughout almost the whole dinner. My dad intended to bring it home after the dinner and rear it, just in case it gets pounced on by cats in the open. Halfway through the dinner, the bird flew and landed on our table. It seems to know that my dad had the kind intention and hopped right in front of my dad. It was so so very cute..... 超可爱.

But all of a sudden, it flew to the ground again and by tat time, a crowd had gathered around it. This waitress...then walked over and picked the bird up and walk away with it. After a while, my mum went up to her and ask her where is the bird. She say the "tang kee"m say cannot keep. Must 放生, so she brought the bird to a junction and let it fly.

Wah lau!!!! The bird super tiny and cannot fly high de. Everyone saw the bird cannot fly high, she bring to a traffic junction and 放生. Stupid or what?! Some more still very 得以 telling her friend about it like she so 伟大.

My mum was worried. So she walk to the junction to find the bird hoping it's still alive.... but sad to say, it was dead already. Its body was lying near the divided flat....

I was rather traumatized cause one min it was still alive, flying around and hopping in front of me and the next, it's dead. We almost had the chance to bring it home so that we can keep it away from the dangers of the open such as cats and cars. Yet that stupid woman stupidly brought it to a traffic junction and there it died. 笨死了!!!!!

My mum was quite pissed, so she walk up to that dumb woman and told her the bird is dead. She pretended not to hear and carrying on bragging to her friends.

I think she super brainless.... cause hor, we were in the middle of a field (the dinner was under a tentage on a field) and yet instead of 放生 at the field, she had to walk to the traffic junction. Kowz! Isn't she plain dumb, stupid, brainless? And wat's worse is tat she seems indifferent to the fact tat the bird died.

Damn it! So angry with her!!!!!! After all, a bird is a living thing...... Sadz..... Wat a brainless bitch!

时间的对错

在对的时间，遇到对的人，是一生幸福

在对的时间，遇到错的人， 是一场心痛

在错的时间，遇到错的人，是一段荒谬

在错的时间，遇到对的人，是一生遗憾

Saw this is Sam Kor's blog... 对最后一句特别有感觉。在错的时间遇到对的人， 真的是会有遗憾的。。。

不过可能有了遗憾，才算是体会了人生吧。经过了遗憾人总会变得更会珍惜。但为何我还是不会呢？一次的教训还不够吗？

Things I really dun Understand

Jus came back from lunch with Janice. Good to see a good friend again after so long.... It's amazing how well friendship can develop from a simple "hi" at the beginning. =) And it's only thru the passage of time that one knows who are the 靠得住 friends. Janice... u shld know wat i mean or rather... who I mean hor... Aiyo... So bad.

Anyway.... I was asking Janice to relate her part of the story about The Joker, The Silly Sinta and The Gucci Bag. There's a lot of things I cannot and will never understand why it's like tat.

Firstly, how can somone jus walk away with 2 bags and not realising it.
Then, the same person, can go home with it, cause she's too lazy to walk back.
Thirdly, this same person can last thru the whole night with a hp ringing korean tune which is nt from her hp and slept thru it (this one still nt so bad... cause drunk le, then half awake half asleep so dreaming tat she is starring in a korean show. Haha!)

Nonetheless probably, this is how one is really is when drunk..... So this serves as a warning for all who goes clubbing and drinks. Either dun drink to prevent this from happening to urself, or stay away from people who's drunk to prevent ending up homeless for the night.

After a long long relationship

Was browsing thru friendster.... Saw Min has her profile stating she's single. I presume she and L has broken up. Haiz... After so long.... they din make it. I guess they have been together for about 5 or 6yrs ba.... maybe even 7yrs. 真的是很可惜。。。 在一起这么久了， 结果还是这样。

I'm nt implying tat having been together long le cannot break up, jus tat I feel it's a pity. Having spent like 6, 7 yrs with each other only to realise both are not suitable? Or was it an initiated breakup on the impulse by one party.... jus like what i did so many years ago? I dunno... And I guess I will never know. Cause ever since, me and him broke up, I've lost contact with this group of friends. Afterall, they were his friends...

Haiz... Wat are the basis of a relationship. Does 2 person really have to take such a long time before they realise they can't be together? The more possible answer might be tat having been together for a long time le, either side got tired of the relationship le. Isn't tat sad?

不知道要怎样形容我现在的想法。只是觉得有一种很难过的感受。我也不知道为何。。。。也许是又想起了一些藏了很久的回忆。

I wish I can tell Min and L to reconsider their decision. Take into accounts the feeling you once had for each other. Maybe the decision might be different......

Giving Presents

Jas is on leave today... He is going to settle his car loan thingy. So... I ask him send me to work. He huh... seldom will be so willing to wake up so early in the morning and fetch me to work de. For today... he has a big motivation waking him. Lolx!

Too bad I got lots to complete at work today. If nt I can take leave to accompany him. Afterall, he's nt on leave very often. Oh well.... Jus too bad. Haiz....

Saw a Gucci card holder while shopping with Kel the other day. Think it's their new collection. I like I like.... but hor... but hor.... no money buy for this month..... =( Haiz... Gotta wait lor... Next month ba...

Vday coming le... After having went thru so many Vdays, I'm starting to see it as a commercial event. Everything is so expensive on tat day. Set dinners... Flowers... everything..... Think all the commercial people are leveraging on Vday to make as much profit as possible. Dunno since how long ago, I stopped celebrating on the actual day. Either that or no elaborate celebration. The cliche saying goes, "Everyday is Vday when 2 person are in love." Haha!

Haven got Jas any decent gift for Vday for the past 2yrs (since I stop working full time and went back to study), so when I went past Lee Hwa yesterday, 心血来潮，went to choose a gift for him. I settled on a Starke bracelet. I think he ever mention before tat he likes the Starke collection... so bought it for him lor. Wanted to keep till Vday then give de, but cannot contain my own excitment so give him yesterday le. =) 他好喜欢。还没弄短九先带了。

Me hor... when I buy presents hor, I very excited one leh. Will wanna give the person immediately. Dunno why oso. Maybe I enjoy seeing the recipients expression when receiving the gift ba. It's like this moment of suspense where you will see either disappointment or 喜悦 on receiving a present. Of course I enjoy more of the happinesss shown on the face....

So now... Who wants to buy me a present to see my expression on receiving it? Lolx!

Contradictions and Expectations

Sometimes I wonder why am I so full of contradictions and expectations. And it's always due to this tat I end up being unhappy, wilful and hurting the people I love. I really hate this.

He loved it and wanted so much to have it. I love him so much that I want him to have it just so that he will be delighted, but I just cannot overcome my own expectations to accept the idea of getting it. End up I get frustrated with myself, with him, with everything...... I decides at the moment of folly I want to jump out of the situation. It's just me and my stupid character.

Why is it I never learn? Always so 任性.....

Lucky for me, he's ever so patient with me. Bearing my temper and nonsense, explaining the entire situation to me.

Feeling very tired now... Too much emotions stirring in me. Need to sleep to settle it down....

Straight Hair No More

For the first time in my life.... I permed my hair.....

All along, I've had the preference for straight long hair. Somehow I didn't think that curls would suit me cause I had thick hair and tat perming it would only make it look bombastic. When rebonding was available, I felt it was like the greatest invention for girls tat needed straight hair....

Finally.... yesterday.... I had the courage to try what I've been tempted to try..... SPA PERM!!! Lolx! So many people have caught up in the fad and me too also wanna try something different for once. Struggle so hard to resist the urge to cut my hair jus so that I can try perming it. Alas! I did it. =)

Yippee! My new hairstyle! I sat 7hrs in the salon doing this. Can you believe it?

So far I got pretty good comments bout it. Even Jas who always thought that curls are auntie say I look not bad in it. I guess it makes me look my age ba.... Since people always thought I look younger than my age before this hairstyle.

I'm still getting use to it cause now, it's no longer as easy as a "wash and go" thingy. Needs a bit of time and patience to style it each time after I washes my hair..... Hope the curls to last though. Anyway.... I love this. Lolx!

好贵的螃蟹

You know those gigantic crab we always see in advertisements of seafood restaurants? Those that look so many times bigger than a normal crab?

Well... I finally had the chance to eat one today.

My boss brought us to a Cantonese restaurant today to have our Lo Hei lunch and we ordered lobster and crab. The head waitress recommended the Alaskan Crab and my boss decided to give it a try. We knew it was expensive but din know it would be THAT expensive.

Before they kill the crab to cook it, the waitress actually brought in the crab to show us. A pity we din take any pictures of it... We should have.... Cause it cost my boss a freaking $400. Yes! $400 for tat Alaskan Crab. The most expensive crab that I hv ever eaten in my god damn life. It was really good though. They cook the crab in 3 ways..... Steam the body, the legs were cooked in black pepper and the roe cooked with asparagus. Delicious.... and the price that came with it, makes it even more delicious.

We had lobster also and it isn't cheap either. Total bill came up to $800+ for 6 pax. Wah! My boss was in total shock to see the bill..... Lolx!

In case anyone's interested in where that restaurant is, it's call Imperial Treasure at Great World City.

I think a $400 crab is really worth a blog entry in here.... Lolx! Jus too bad... No photos to show how it looks like. Oh well....

Haiz.... Sometimes I feel my social life is getting more and more boring. WHY???

Seems like a lot of my friends (of my age) are having lots of fun going to clubs, hanging out and lots of activities. Why is it that I seems to be stuck in a rut?

Work from Mon to Fri, dinners in the evening, Fri night mahjong, Sat hang around at home with Jas (once in a while mahjong), Sun stay home... dinner with parents. And there! That's my week. Haiz...... So boring!

Can't something more interesting happen? Once in a while, I feel like going out drink, drunk and be wild. Hmm... miss those times man.... Why? Is it as we age, there is nothing more we can do other than mahjong? Not tat I dun like mahjong, love the game to death but hor.... I feel deprive of a more upbeat social life. 有时候觉得好像没有朋友，真可怜！

Talking about age. I feel very contradicting. 有时候觉得很年轻，有时候又觉得老了，　老了.... So 到底是怎样。Sianz Sianz Sianz......

世界第二幸福

Saw this scene in a show....

A couple getting married in a chapel.... The male lead said, "我要你做世界上第二幸福的人" so the female lead asked, "为什么不是第一个？"

I could guess the answer.....

It's a very corny statement but yet I found it one of the most romantic one. It shows that the man is so very in love with the lady that he feels he's the most happy to be with her. I think most people feel most happy with the one he/she loves..... tat's why although the statement is simple and corny, it expresses very well one's innermost feeling.

I too... wan the guy who marry me to feel he's the happiest in the world. I wouldn't mind being the 2nd happiest. Haiz.... or maybe tat only happens in show.... Not in reality....

End of CNY Holidays

So that's the end of the CNY holidays. Although, new year is normally for 15days but for most people who are working, it ends when they start going back to the office. Some so shiok, only start work on 6Feb... Me? Back to my desk on thurs. Should have been Wed but was on MC.... haiz... this whole CNY, sick all the way no recover de. So sian... Still, I took pictures to humour myself. Lolx!

Outside Jas place. He couldn't wake on on the 1st day of CNY. He was suppose to go house visting with me. While waiting for him, nothing to do, so act cute lor. Lolx!

1st day of CNY, as usual, go house visiting lor. Then evening time went to Eug hse for "gambling session" Play mahjong de play mahjong, play cards de play cards. My ang bao yearly get lesser and lesser le. So boring!

This year is oso the 1st time I brought bf along. I think Jas made a pretty good impression on all my auntie and uncles ba. =)

2nd Day of CNY

Went for Tim Sum with Dad, Mum and Sis. It's our tradition to have Tim Sum on 初二 since dunno how long ago. We use to eat at the Northen Palace at Colombo court till it move and close down. Ever since, we had the yearly Tim Sum at the chinese restaurant at SRC.

After the meal, we went to take a walk at the 春到河畔 see see look look. Take some pictures and off I went to meet Jas. Went his aunt place. The most amazing thing is that, we both fell asleep on the sofa there and slept for 2 hrs. A CNY day spent like tat.

Taken at the prata shop where we had dinner (think tat's the only food available other than fast food on CNY ba.) Edited the photo with my N70. Nice nice leh....

After that, it was off to Jac's place for more mahjong. We had 2 tables.... I think her neighbour must be hopping mad le. But who cares? It's CNY!!!!

3rd day....

In Jas van... waiting for Zhihao to come down.

Downstairs Kel house waiting for him. He huh... always very slow de.

We went to watch movie. Jac sick le.... so she din join us for the movie. I went with Jas, Kel, Tan and Zhihao.... watch 霍元甲. Not bad leh.... His last Kung Fu show le. He look old in the movie le.

So well.... tat was CNY for me.... :)

My own piece of Lavender Farm

See the nice field of lavender? Lolx! There's where I wanna live in.... Went to one of the Lavender farm at Melbourne and OMG! It's so nice.... Everywhere you can smell the light scent of the lavender and it really is a pleasing sight with the lilac colour all over.

And just like the lady owner of the farm, I'll have 2 Borderline Collie to accompany me on the farm. Everyday, I'll take time to manage the farm, take long walks among the fields of lavender.... Make my own lavender products.... Ah.... how blissful it sounds (of course I must live there will my love....) When can this dream of mine be fufilled... Hmmm.....

Yeah! Today is Fri which means the long long weekend is almost here..... Lolx! Went shopping with Pat yesterday during lunch (she wanted to buy new year dress), but guess what? Me ended up the who returning back to office with a nice dress. Lolx!

Well, the story goes.... She say this pretty dress hanging in this shop but dun have her size left and she turned to me and say, "Eh, you go try leh, 你穿应该很好看。Go lah!" I wasn't interested in the dress cause it's too 女人, not my style lah. Still I went ahead to try for the fun of it, wanting to just show Pat how the dress looks. End up... I think everyone knows the story... Haha! I fell in love with the dress and bought it. Yeah! So exciting! Now I got clothes from 初一 till 初三. Lolx!

So.... 1st day of CNY, I'll wear the dress, next day wear the capri with my yellow top and the third, my new jeans with the peach colour top (that was in my previous post) and all these outfit will go with my lovely royal purple jwest heels *woot* Damn hyper! (Erm... I think I sound so vain and bimboish)

Aiya... me so happy cause almost no more sick le oso mah..... plus today is FRIDAY!!!! Lolx!

Jas is going fishing tonight. Looks like I cannot watch my Memoir of a Geisha le. See how lor... Maybe during the holidays in the next few days ba. Actually hor dunno wanna watch or not leh. Some say nice, some say not nice.... I read the book before and it's was really good so haiz... if the movie end up 不到水准 hor, very disappointing de leh. Well... c how lor... Got time then watch, no time skip it lor.

Of Dogs and Humans

Blogging from office now....

Been leaving my office like 8pm or 9pm everyday. Dunno why oso.... Sometimes, I really like working late cause when all is quiet and still in the office, I can concentrate better. Maybe I feel more relaxed, tat's why.

Jus now, I was in a cab listening to a talkshow. The topic for the day was on pets that were given as gifts. Some people are against giving of pets as presents cause some people after receiving it, might nt know how to take care and end up abandoning them. Quite true lor.

I remember seeing a cocker spaniel of 3yrs old in a pet shop. The owner was selling it and the dog looked damn sad in the cage. At tat point of time, I was thinking how cruel of the owner to sell the dog when it's 3 yrs old. For all you know, the dog has been with the owner for 3yrs and have grown attached to him/her and then the owner is selling it away. How sad the dog must be feeling..... and wat more, the dog still has to go thru a period of transition to get use to a new owner.

Some people might say that dogs are easily adaptable. Give them good food and they will forget about the previous owners. However, I feel dogs are just like the many kinds of human. Some humans can be heartless and fall towards people who gives them benefit. Yet there are also some humans who knows how to love people who loves them. So I guess it is the same for dogs as well......

I supposed there are always a bit of animal instinct in humans and likewise a little of human in dogs.....

Concentration Test

For guys.... try this ---> http://www.gjk2.com/test/test.swf
Lolx!

I'm sick... Headache, flu, fever coming all at the same time. Sianz... And it's almost CNY. Like that how? Haiz....

A date with a Green Eye Jiang Shi

Me with my Aqua coloured contact lens.

Hmm... Found it wierd when i first wear it. But after a while, got use to it and ok lah.... not too bad. Maybe I should get one more pair in another colour. Thinking of getting the violet or the hazel colour....

Got my top from Elaine on Sun. It's so nice..... Love it man... So there. It ends my hunt for "The Top". The chain belt is really nice. Think I should be able to use it for my other clothes. Looking forward to the new year. Cause many days of holidays mah. And of course it means more mahjong. Haha! Think Adrian they all are gonna play higher stakes and tat means if I play I probably might get heart attack. Haha! I think my hands will shake like hell if I am playing 5 tai and waiting for the last card to game. Scary sia....

Well, still, I am looking forward to it. =)

Chinese New Year Top!!!

Elaine jus send me this pic and say she is starting an online shop and will be ordering this top from HK. Asked me if I want one, very cheap can wear for new year! Lolx! I ordered the peach colour for CNY. Like tat no nd go shopping le lor. Wahahahaha! So excited until must blog about it immediately.

But wait, if I cannot wear then jia lat le. Keep fingers cross....

Zombie

Feeling like a zombie....

After a night of mahjong, I'm spacing out at work.... Was suppose to be a fast game, but dunno how come ended so late. So not enough sleep! =(

Eyes a bit swollen but dunno is it due to lack of sleep or from 20hrs continuous wear of contact lens. Was thinking of trying my new Aqua coloured contacts lens today de, but thought probably shld give it a miss just in case my eye infection recurs. Oh well, save it for CNY maybe. Hopefully can go with my yellow top. Hmm....

So much on my "to-do list" (imaginery de. I never have a physical To-do List cause in the end I never stick to it. Lolx!) yet dunno where to start. Sianz... Wat's worse it that I have absolutely no motivation to do it. Like that how?

Actually hor... very looking forward to playing mj again leh. But dunno tml got play not. Haiz... Adrian really wanna study huh.... erm... weekend leh. Lolx!

I think I siao one. Been losing and losing but still wanna carry on playing. The game is really addictive sia. Win or lose dun matter lah.... Aiya, suddenly thought of something. Still lack of one top for new year. Dunno wat to buy. So far haven seen any really nice top to go with my jeans. Maybe can go shop around this Sat? I wonder if Jas is in the mood for that or not....

I think I am jus rambling in the blog. Tat's the after effect of a night of mahjong and only 3hrs of sleep, plus bored at work......

How Good Is Your Eyesight?

Lolx! Something I saw while browsing the internet.

When a blog is no longer just a blog

Was just browsing thru a few blogs of a few famous "bloggers" and it seems like there is a war going on. To a certain group of people, it seems to have become an avenue to get publicity and to get famous. Personally, I dun see any prob with tat. However, it seems to have created too much of a hoo-ha over such a trvial matter. People are writing in their own blogs as a manner of attacking one another personally.

Why is it so? Isn't a blog just meant to be a place to document thoughts and feelings for one's perusal?

Well maybe tat is the price one pays for being famous or in another way, infamous.

From the look of it, seems like a storm might be coming to what they call the "BLOGOSPHERE".

White Chocolate I am

I'M A WHITE CHOCOLATE

You have a strong feminine side with a good bit of innocence thrown in.
Whether your girlish ways are an act or not, men like to take care of you.
You are an understated beauty, and your power is often underestimated

I'm hooked on all these funny test. hehe! I'm a white chocolate which in fact is my least fav kind of chocolate. I prefer dark bitter chocolate. Nice to have whenever I feel blue. So What chocolate are you?

How In Love am I?

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.

You give completely and unconditionally in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

Another test I found somewhere. Go here if u wanna check out how in love you are. I think, the sentence "When you fall, you fall hard" is especially true. Hmm....

Choice

My head is heavy with lots of thoughts... or is it from the medicine that I am taking? I wonder...

Had a dream last night that makes me wake up full of question marks. In the dream, I was all alone in a room... the decor was all white. I received a phonecall. From Eddy.

He told me he is in the hospital and dying. He wishes to see me. I was crying and told him I'll be there. As soon as I hang with the line, my phone rang again. This time it was Jas. He says he needs to see me urgently but without stating the reason. He only mentioned that if I'm not gonna come, I won't be able to see him anymore and with that he hung up the phone.

I stood in the middle of the stark white room.... lost... Two strings seems to be pulling me at both different directions and I couldn't decided where to go and who to see. To make matters worse, the oxygen level in the room seems to be depleting at a very fast rate. I had to decide soon where exactly I wanna be. And then I woke up in my room in total darkness.

Was that a reflection of how I feel in reality?

However, in reality I dun have a choice. I'm nt given a choice. So why do I have to make a decision in my dream? Was is a sign of something else that I'm not aware of? Or maybe, it was just a dream afterall. Nothing else....

She can't rid the past,

She can't embrace the present.

Future.

Do not even seems to exists.

Behind her beautiful facade,

She is just a wretched soul.

Win money from Mahjong. Lolx

Jus home from yet another mahjong session....

Feeling super guilty tat I let Jas spend the weekend alone. Nvm... Will make it up to him somehow next weekend.

Nothing much I wanna blog about. Just feel like adding another entry to my blog tat's all. Lolx! Super bo liao... Anyway... ya... tat's about it.... =)

I'm a Cheer Bear!!!

This test is soooo cute.... Got it from Inoka's blog. Well, it seems quite accurate cause indeed I like it when everyone is happy and no one's left out. To me, that is a form of happiness tat's valuable in life.

New Year Resolution

I know New Year's day has passed and it's funny that I only thought about New Year resolution only now but still here's mine:-

1. I want to go on a diet!
In order to acheive that, I'll make myself walk out to the interchange every morning to take bus to work instead of taking the feeder bus. I'll also nd to be more conscious of the food I eat and try to avoid food that makes me fat. Eat much more lighter meals. Probably will eat more meals but lesser food.

2. I will save money!
No more spending like there's no tml, even though I dun do that very often. Lol. Apart from the amount that me and Jas has agreed to keep aside each, I'll put $1 in my piggy bank daily. Though $1 is nt much but, it's amazing how much it can go up to after some time. Hehe! Still it's saving money mah.....

3. I will stop buying small small items and clothes which is presumed to be not expensive.
But in fact, all these little little amount can add up to quite a lot! I would then use the amount of money I save of such things to buy more quality items like LV? Gucci? Haha!

4. I will try to make myself happier.
Easier said than done but I really wanna feel happier

So there you go... my New Year resolution for 2006. =)

I sms him Merry Xmas and then Happy New Year. He din reply either sms. Not that I am expecting a reply, jus that the disappointment was a bit hard to bear.... It seems to shout right in my face, "It's over! I dun wanna keep in contact anymore!"

Sometimes all I wan is just to know he's ok and how he's doing. Is tat really so difficult? Haiz... I guess I was the one who made it hard for us in the first place....

I look forward to the day when I can look back and no longer recall the pain I am feeling. Just like how me and Jac had talked about. I know it will all go away someday. I just want tat someday to come quickly, so that my heart wouldn't ache so badly each time I hear a familiar song, a familiar name or a familiar story....

This whole damn thing might just wear me out. I feel like I'm walking a step and going back two. How can one's heart and mind be so contradicting? How can one feel in love and out of love at the same time?