Self Torture... Wahahaha

I think i got a self-torture tendency, in a mental kinda way. Whenever I'm feeling sad, I like to listen to songs that makes me even more depressed. Like to hear those very touching songs that I can relate to. Then I'll relieve the memories in me and cry myself to sleep. Is this normal? Although I go to sleep in a depressed mood but I always wake up the next day in a relieved mood. It's like I get to relieve my stress that way and helps me get on with life. Maybe this is my way of relaxing.... sounds wierd eh? nvm...