On this Night....

How it accumulate to this wasn't a surprise..... Just like any other human being there is only so much he can take. Tonight I saw him lost, not knowing what to do, unable to make any proper decisions. He just wants an outlet to disappear and not care.

Me.... I can't take the suppressing pressure. I cannot decide in or out. I said all I can, in exchange, he replied that "if only I had said all these earlier" It's always the question of "if only". I blame him for not understanding me enough to know that I wouldn't walk away. But I didn't consider that I might hv took it for granted tat he would understand. 2 words - Communication Breakdown. Just like any others.........

在不知不觉当中，我已经习惯每晚都有他在我身边。就算只是彼此躺着什么也不说。。。 对我来说都是一种安慰。
昨晚，他不在，我是空虚的。我是害怕的。

不想再留不住了。我应该承受不了。。。

I can feel the impending doom.

Will I ride through it or will I fall into it?

Blank.....

See no light at the moment.