In the middle

I feel like I am in the middle of a tunnel. Right in the middle where I don't see the lights in front and neither do I see the lights where I came from.

I have walked this far to be here and now I'm unsure if I really want to turn back. Yet, each step that I move forward, I don't know where it will lead me to. Honestly, I'm scared. Scared of the unknown.

My mood is forever on a see-saw.... High... low... high... low... Thoughts keep circling in my head. I feel like I cannot think rationally. I am lacking rest. Energy depleting. Sleep doesn't comes easy for me and I can't get uninterrupted sleep. I wake up more often than before in the middle of the night. Maybe it's guilt? Maybe it's something else....

I do not want to deny the happiness in my life nor can I deny the pressure that is building up in me. I hope all these pass soon.

Raining at Marina Barrage.....

The grey skies makes me even more moody. As the rain pours, I feel my heart drowning even more....

Haven't update here for quite a while.....

There has been happy stuff and unhappy stuff going on in my life at the same time. I am now sitting at Marina Barrage at a setup as I am typing this away.

With the wind blowing and the view, it makes me miss you.... especially the curry chicken..... =/

Work has been occupying me most of the time. Whatever free time I have, I just wanna space out. But I can't.... I still need to think, need to consider my options and my decisions.

Honestly I am lost.... it's not easy for me.... I dunno....