My own piece of Lavender Farm

See the nice field of lavender? Lolx! There's where I wanna live in.... Went to one of the Lavender farm at Melbourne and OMG! It's so nice.... Everywhere you can smell the light scent of the lavender and it really is a pleasing sight with the lilac colour all over.

And just like the lady owner of the farm, I'll have 2 Borderline Collie to accompany me on the farm. Everyday, I'll take time to manage the farm, take long walks among the fields of lavender.... Make my own lavender products.... Ah.... how blissful it sounds (of course I must live there will my love....) When can this dream of mine be fufilled... Hmmm.....

Yeah! Today is Fri which means the long long weekend is almost here..... Lolx! Went shopping with Pat yesterday during lunch (she wanted to buy new year dress), but guess what? Me ended up the who returning back to office with a nice dress. Lolx!

Well, the story goes.... She say this pretty dress hanging in this shop but dun have her size left and she turned to me and say, "Eh, you go try leh, 你穿应该很好看。Go lah!" I wasn't interested in the dress cause it's too 女人, not my style lah. Still I went ahead to try for the fun of it, wanting to just show Pat how the dress looks. End up... I think everyone knows the story... Haha! I fell in love with the dress and bought it. Yeah! So exciting! Now I got clothes from 初一 till 初三. Lolx!

So.... 1st day of CNY, I'll wear the dress, next day wear the capri with my yellow top and the third, my new jeans with the peach colour top (that was in my previous post) and all these outfit will go with my lovely royal purple jwest heels *woot* Damn hyper! (Erm... I think I sound so vain and bimboish)

Aiya... me so happy cause almost no more sick le oso mah..... plus today is FRIDAY!!!! Lolx!

Jas is going fishing tonight. Looks like I cannot watch my Memoir of a Geisha le. See how lor... Maybe during the holidays in the next few days ba. Actually hor dunno wanna watch or not leh. Some say nice, some say not nice.... I read the book before and it's was really good so haiz... if the movie end up 不到水准 hor, very disappointing de leh. Well... c how lor... Got time then watch, no time skip it lor.

Of Dogs and Humans

Blogging from office now....

Been leaving my office like 8pm or 9pm everyday. Dunno why oso.... Sometimes, I really like working late cause when all is quiet and still in the office, I can concentrate better. Maybe I feel more relaxed, tat's why.

Jus now, I was in a cab listening to a talkshow. The topic for the day was on pets that were given as gifts. Some people are against giving of pets as presents cause some people after receiving it, might nt know how to take care and end up abandoning them. Quite true lor.

I remember seeing a cocker spaniel of 3yrs old in a pet shop. The owner was selling it and the dog looked damn sad in the cage. At tat point of time, I was thinking how cruel of the owner to sell the dog when it's 3 yrs old. For all you know, the dog has been with the owner for 3yrs and have grown attached to him/her and then the owner is selling it away. How sad the dog must be feeling..... and wat more, the dog still has to go thru a period of transition to get use to a new owner.

Some people might say that dogs are easily adaptable. Give them good food and they will forget about the previous owners. However, I feel dogs are just like the many kinds of human. Some humans can be heartless and fall towards people who gives them benefit. Yet there are also some humans who knows how to love people who loves them. So I guess it is the same for dogs as well......

I supposed there are always a bit of animal instinct in humans and likewise a little of human in dogs.....

Concentration Test

For guys.... try this ---> http://www.gjk2.com/test/test.swf
Lolx!

I'm sick... Headache, flu, fever coming all at the same time. Sianz... And it's almost CNY. Like that how? Haiz....

A date with a Green Eye Jiang Shi

Me with my Aqua coloured contact lens.

Hmm... Found it wierd when i first wear it. But after a while, got use to it and ok lah.... not too bad. Maybe I should get one more pair in another colour. Thinking of getting the violet or the hazel colour....

Got my top from Elaine on Sun. It's so nice..... Love it man... So there. It ends my hunt for "The Top". The chain belt is really nice. Think I should be able to use it for my other clothes. Looking forward to the new year. Cause many days of holidays mah. And of course it means more mahjong. Haha! Think Adrian they all are gonna play higher stakes and tat means if I play I probably might get heart attack. Haha! I think my hands will shake like hell if I am playing 5 tai and waiting for the last card to game. Scary sia....

Well, still, I am looking forward to it. =)

Chinese New Year Top!!!

Elaine jus send me this pic and say she is starting an online shop and will be ordering this top from HK. Asked me if I want one, very cheap can wear for new year! Lolx! I ordered the peach colour for CNY. Like tat no nd go shopping le lor. Wahahahaha! So excited until must blog about it immediately.

But wait, if I cannot wear then jia lat le. Keep fingers cross....

Zombie

Feeling like a zombie....

After a night of mahjong, I'm spacing out at work.... Was suppose to be a fast game, but dunno how come ended so late. So not enough sleep! =(

Eyes a bit swollen but dunno is it due to lack of sleep or from 20hrs continuous wear of contact lens. Was thinking of trying my new Aqua coloured contacts lens today de, but thought probably shld give it a miss just in case my eye infection recurs. Oh well, save it for CNY maybe. Hopefully can go with my yellow top. Hmm....

So much on my "to-do list" (imaginery de. I never have a physical To-do List cause in the end I never stick to it. Lolx!) yet dunno where to start. Sianz... Wat's worse it that I have absolutely no motivation to do it. Like that how?

Actually hor... very looking forward to playing mj again leh. But dunno tml got play not. Haiz... Adrian really wanna study huh.... erm... weekend leh. Lolx!

I think I siao one. Been losing and losing but still wanna carry on playing. The game is really addictive sia. Win or lose dun matter lah.... Aiya, suddenly thought of something. Still lack of one top for new year. Dunno wat to buy. So far haven seen any really nice top to go with my jeans. Maybe can go shop around this Sat? I wonder if Jas is in the mood for that or not....

I think I am jus rambling in the blog. Tat's the after effect of a night of mahjong and only 3hrs of sleep, plus bored at work......

How Good Is Your Eyesight?

Lolx! Something I saw while browsing the internet.

When a blog is no longer just a blog

Was just browsing thru a few blogs of a few famous "bloggers" and it seems like there is a war going on. To a certain group of people, it seems to have become an avenue to get publicity and to get famous. Personally, I dun see any prob with tat. However, it seems to have created too much of a hoo-ha over such a trvial matter. People are writing in their own blogs as a manner of attacking one another personally.

Why is it so? Isn't a blog just meant to be a place to document thoughts and feelings for one's perusal?

Well maybe tat is the price one pays for being famous or in another way, infamous.

From the look of it, seems like a storm might be coming to what they call the "BLOGOSPHERE".

White Chocolate I am

I'M A WHITE CHOCOLATE

You have a strong feminine side with a good bit of innocence thrown in.
Whether your girlish ways are an act or not, men like to take care of you.
You are an understated beauty, and your power is often underestimated

I'm hooked on all these funny test. hehe! I'm a white chocolate which in fact is my least fav kind of chocolate. I prefer dark bitter chocolate. Nice to have whenever I feel blue. So What chocolate are you?

How In Love am I?

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.

You give completely and unconditionally in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

Another test I found somewhere. Go here if u wanna check out how in love you are. I think, the sentence "When you fall, you fall hard" is especially true. Hmm....

Choice

My head is heavy with lots of thoughts... or is it from the medicine that I am taking? I wonder...

Had a dream last night that makes me wake up full of question marks. In the dream, I was all alone in a room... the decor was all white. I received a phonecall. From Eddy.

He told me he is in the hospital and dying. He wishes to see me. I was crying and told him I'll be there. As soon as I hang with the line, my phone rang again. This time it was Jas. He says he needs to see me urgently but without stating the reason. He only mentioned that if I'm not gonna come, I won't be able to see him anymore and with that he hung up the phone.

I stood in the middle of the stark white room.... lost... Two strings seems to be pulling me at both different directions and I couldn't decided where to go and who to see. To make matters worse, the oxygen level in the room seems to be depleting at a very fast rate. I had to decide soon where exactly I wanna be. And then I woke up in my room in total darkness.

Was that a reflection of how I feel in reality?

However, in reality I dun have a choice. I'm nt given a choice. So why do I have to make a decision in my dream? Was is a sign of something else that I'm not aware of? Or maybe, it was just a dream afterall. Nothing else....

She can't rid the past,

She can't embrace the present.

Future.

Do not even seems to exists.

Behind her beautiful facade,

She is just a wretched soul.

Win money from Mahjong. Lolx

Jus home from yet another mahjong session....

Feeling super guilty tat I let Jas spend the weekend alone. Nvm... Will make it up to him somehow next weekend.

Nothing much I wanna blog about. Just feel like adding another entry to my blog tat's all. Lolx! Super bo liao... Anyway... ya... tat's about it.... =)

I'm a Cheer Bear!!!

This test is soooo cute.... Got it from Inoka's blog. Well, it seems quite accurate cause indeed I like it when everyone is happy and no one's left out. To me, that is a form of happiness tat's valuable in life.

New Year Resolution

I know New Year's day has passed and it's funny that I only thought about New Year resolution only now but still here's mine:-

1. I want to go on a diet!
In order to acheive that, I'll make myself walk out to the interchange every morning to take bus to work instead of taking the feeder bus. I'll also nd to be more conscious of the food I eat and try to avoid food that makes me fat. Eat much more lighter meals. Probably will eat more meals but lesser food.

2. I will save money!
No more spending like there's no tml, even though I dun do that very often. Lol. Apart from the amount that me and Jas has agreed to keep aside each, I'll put $1 in my piggy bank daily. Though $1 is nt much but, it's amazing how much it can go up to after some time. Hehe! Still it's saving money mah.....

3. I will stop buying small small items and clothes which is presumed to be not expensive.
But in fact, all these little little amount can add up to quite a lot! I would then use the amount of money I save of such things to buy more quality items like LV? Gucci? Haha!

4. I will try to make myself happier.
Easier said than done but I really wanna feel happier

So there you go... my New Year resolution for 2006. =)

I sms him Merry Xmas and then Happy New Year. He din reply either sms. Not that I am expecting a reply, jus that the disappointment was a bit hard to bear.... It seems to shout right in my face, "It's over! I dun wanna keep in contact anymore!"

Sometimes all I wan is just to know he's ok and how he's doing. Is tat really so difficult? Haiz... I guess I was the one who made it hard for us in the first place....

I look forward to the day when I can look back and no longer recall the pain I am feeling. Just like how me and Jac had talked about. I know it will all go away someday. I just want tat someday to come quickly, so that my heart wouldn't ache so badly each time I hear a familiar song, a familiar name or a familiar story....

This whole damn thing might just wear me out. I feel like I'm walking a step and going back two. How can one's heart and mind be so contradicting? How can one feel in love and out of love at the same time?