就只要这样

他。。。

牵着我的手逛街

沉醉在彼此的陪伴

享受两个人的晚餐

这。。。

就是我简单的幸福

烦烦烦!

I have so much frustration in me that I can't even enjoy a Friday night! Damn... and I was really looking forward to my Friday evening.

Having been on the job for 3 months, there are many things that are becoming apparent, e.g: how people behave, their intention, their personality etc. As much as I wanna steer clear of office politics, somehow somewhere, it's there. It makes everything damn shitty!

In all my previous jobs, I have never work with shitty colleague before. I mean there are in the company but they are not colleagues in the same dept as me or whom I have direct work r/s with. This time I finally met one and a real shitty one.

At first, he seems to be like quite a nice guy, a colleague who stresses very much on team work and helping each other out. But know I know when he says teamwork, he means us supporting him in his work and NOT vice versa. He will just concentrate on the bosses' pet project and simply pushes whatever he deems not important to me and Cheryl. WTF?! Oh... and did I mention that he loves carrying "balls". Someone was commenting that he only got 2 hands lor, how to carry so many. My reply was that, he uses his mouth as well mah. tmd! Like tat can carry more le lor. The only way to get him to do wat is required is to tell him, "Eh... boss says he needs blah blah blah soon....." Then he will get his ass moving. Damn sian lor....

What's worse is that he totally ignores privacy and personal space lor. Who gives him the fucking right peep over people's shoulder to see what I am doing at my work cubicle? At least have the decency to respect people's privacy mah. Not like I am doing anything personal of watever lah, but it's super irritating mah. Wah kaoz! Sometimes still see wat people type on msn lor. Not as if I know him mega long already then he knows my friends wat. Wah lau! If I were to carry on complaining about him I think this will be a super long entry man.... Never ending ah....

Other than him bugging me. There's work tat's so frustrating also. This mega project tat's happening is like eating into everyone.... Everything is so last min and like damn not organised lor. Event happening less than 2 weeks and lots of things are still not finalized. Even got client email me and ask me, "Do you guys work best under tight deadline?" Haiz... Fucking good question. Probably they do... but it definately doesn't seems that way for me. No, I'm thrown to do some shit work and I gotta just deal with it. I hope it all ends when they are all packed in the plane and flying there. I need a break! It's scary that only 3months at work there and I'm already gasping for air and wanting a break. This is like symptoms to "burning out".....

Sianz sianz sianz.... Sunday gotta be back in office again..... War!!!!! Yes... my office now is like a battlefied everyday.....

Weekend Review

Finally I have a weekend free from work and a rather enjoyable one ya.... =) For the past few weekends, I either had to work on a Sat or Sun, if not is there is work that I have to do at home or I'm too tired from work to do anything.

On Friday night, I stayed to help Raymond for a Singapore Lyrics Opera Fund-Raising event. It ended at 10plus at night. Tiring but it was quite fun. See a lot of rich tai-tais in splendid gowns. I was marvelling at all the nice dresses that they got. I wonder where they shop at lor. Lots of high profile people attended the dinner. There was Mrs Goh Chok Tong, the boss of Far East Organization and the GOH was Mr Wong Kan Seng. I heard the dinner was sold at $1,000 per pax! No wonder it's all the rich people. Other than the dinner, there was a concert where some of the invited guests sang some opera songs like La Vie En Rose, O Sole Mio, 蒂女花 and 上海滩. Not bad! =)

Jas came and pick me up after tat. He was already in the vicinity at 10pm waiting for me but no choice lah. He gotta wait, he gotta wait. For work mah.... He also very nice for nt complaining. =) We both went back home cause we're too tired to go anywhere already.

On Sat, we had quite a few programmes lined-up to make sure we're both not bored. Jas came to pick me up to go to the Motorcar Show.

Off we go, to the Motorcar Show....

We went with Eug also, cause he was the one who provided us with the free tickets to the show. Technically speaking, is not from him lah. He got it from his sister. We were rather excited about the event at first but upon reaching there, we were quite disappointed. Not much to see in fact. Mitsubishi is not even one of the exhibitors. There were the nice and expensive cars, of course like Maserati and Lamborghini which never fails to attract a crowd but other than that, haiz.... Not much pretty girsl to see also. The prettiest I see there are the models for Lexus. Woo hoo.... I wasn't even in the mood to take pictures there lor. =p
After the show, Eug went for dinner with his sis while Jas and I did some shopping before heading to the nest of the Kim family. We had scheduled a mahjong session way in advance. This time I was the big winner.... (is it again?! hehe). I won 5 bucks from the Kim family and 24 bucks from Jas. Soon, Mrs Kim will be saying I'm winning her diapers money from her already. =p

Hey Sinta, take that as payment for Jas' service to teach adjust the cot ok? hehe! Cheap cheap only lah. Haha! Ahem... and yes, Jas did manage to figure out how to adjust the cot afterall..... Judging from the stuff that they have prepared for Yoori, I'm pretty sure they are more or less ready for her arrival. Now, we all jus wait patiently for the little one to be born. =)

This afternoon, Jas and I went to Jelita's place for a Hari Raya Makan Session. She invited us there lor. Haven't seen her for a long time already and she still looks as fantastic. Hmm... seems like wedding bells are even ringing already for her. Good to know she's happy. *smilez*

Gotta go catcha tv programme now..... tata

Today is a damn suay day lor.....

I woke up late for work. Ok.. this is my own mistake cause I jus keep snoozing my alarm clock. =p So I had to rush and take a cab.

For a while, I thought I got lucky cause I manage to get a cab like almost immediately when I reach downstairs. Normally I had to either wait for very long before I can get one or I have to "call a cab". But who knows tat was so wrong!!!!

When the cab got to jus before Ang Mo Kio, I saw a sign saying, "MASSIVE JAM UP TO AFTER BALESTIER EXIT" Sianz lor.... massive jam lor.... gotta pay higher cab fare already..... Then I reach into my bag to look for my hp to call office and then I realise I had forgotten to bring it. That's the worst thing that could ever happen lor. I feel so damn lost the entire day without it. I seriously can't remember how life was like before there was hp in this world. But wat to do, I'm already caught in a jam.

My cab fare came up to $24!!!!! I was in the cab for like 1hr+ lor.... *faint* Heart pain the money leh..... Super sianz!!!!!!!!! Argh!!!!!!!

One of the Sweet Thing He Does...

He got angry at me over a small thing, cause I din sms him to tell him I had finish work and gone shopping for heels. So naturally I got angry with him for being mad at me for such a minor thing. So when he realise that how unreasonable the whole thing was, he asked me, "Where's the new heels you bought? I see?"

He's normally totally not interested in what I got in my shopping bags, but yesterday, he showed interest just to please me cause he knows I like to show him what I got from shopping trips. So I got appease..... =)

Why am I awake at such hour when I have to get up at 6am later?????

Damn sianz... cause I have to write a 1500 words academic paper. It's so difficult ok... cause it's on a subject that I am not familiar about. I just finished it lah. But I think I wrote rubbish in it. Couldn't care less cause I'm too tired to even think about what I wrote. Sianz x 100!!!!!

On a happier note, I had a fun Sat night....

I went drinking (haha! not clubbing or anything, jus pure beer drinking session) with Eug, Steven, Jason, Ah Bao and one of Eug's friend call Jiaxi. We had initially planned on going to Fisherman's Village but luckily Yenling has informed me beforehand that it has cease operation. So the few of us, we went to chill out at East Coast. We ended up at this Irish pub call "Scruffy Murphy's" or something like tat de lah...

Cannot jus drink and drink like tat mah, so we played drinking games as well lor. Haha! That Jiaxi hor, damn funny leh. He super bad at playing games lor so he had to drink most of the time but ok lah, he can tolerate alchohol well. I think I did best at those scissors paper stone kinda game. haha! But end up hor, when it was time to go, I sleep in the car lah... Cannot make it le... Lolx! Long time no drink le mah.....

So tat's all for the weekend. Again, I'm looking forward for the next weekend again. I hope I dun have to work through the weekend next week. I need a life!

A trip back in time

Today, I went back to a place where pleasant memories are plenty, a place where friendships were forged, a place where relationships was once held dear...... It was a place where I grew up at...... Bishan Park Secondary School...... =)

I've always considered my secondary school days to be one of my favourite time in life. Cause that's when where all the fun are. Even though there might have been some foolish moments but those are what was most true. Friends I've made in there were with me for a long time, many till now are still my closest buddies.

BPS is one of the schools where the students are participating in the upcoming Arts Camp. So Cheryl had to go collect the forms and payment from there. I gladly oblige to accompany her. I was so excited at going back to a familiar place.... However when I step in there, I had a mixed feeling. Everything that was so familiar seems unfamiliar at the same time. With time, the school had changed. It is probably for the better but to me, I prefer the way it was back then.

I remembered the foyer was my favourite place. I would always be one of the earliest to reach school and I would always sit at the foyer waiting for the rest of them to arrive. It's where we'll sit and joke and people watch. That was also where we had our netball drills sometimes. I think now, an office has been built there, so it's no longer a big empty space.

After I got to know Kel and the rest of them, during our recess time, we always sit at the same table. Everyone seems to know that that particular row is ours..... Between Yenling, XY and I, we hate to return our plates after eating. So we had a deal. The last person to finish eating will have to return the plates for all of us and that person always seems to be XY. haha! Rite Yenling? Maybe she got image to keep so she must always eat slowly and 斯文. Lolx! I dun mind since I dun have to go put those plates back. =p

This is the table where we use to sit - One big entire group.

Fights used to happen at the canteen too which was rather common in my sch. Afterall we were one of the more famous "Ah Beng School" in that vicinity.

One of the most prominent name in that school which many students of my batch will remember will be "Cecilia Ang". She was the discipline mistress and was damn irritating and strict lor. All the "Ah Bengs" and "Ah Lians" hated her. But ok lah. I think she's just doing her job lor. She used to single out girls who wear coloured bra beneath the white blouse (which was the trend back then) and make them change out of it. I think they had some beige coloured bra in the Teacher's Room for them to change. Wah lau! Lucky I always manage to sneak out of her sight lor.

Haiz.... there are much much more things about sec sch that if I were to write down, this entry will be super long ah.... Such as school camps, hanging out at 403, stupid stunts we did in sch etc etc.... Hehe! Nvm... this are all memories that I would keep with me. =) Memories that are worth cherishing. Oh well, thinking back, years have gone by. I have known Yenling for 11yrs and Kel and the rest of the boys for 9yrs....... scary how time passes......

老了。。。老了。。。

*Meow* Today is bitchy!

Not me bitchy but some people are.... and they dun even bother to hide the sarcasm. Although it's not directed at me but it's kinda distracting to work when they are so loud and carrying on and on and on...... It pisses me off but I can't say a word cause it doesn't involve me but the incessant *meowing* and *clawing* is sure irritating me. Oh well.... I had a bad day at work.

Damn!

Alas!! After such a long anticipation, I din get to watch "The Prestige" at VivoCity. TMD!

Cause I was sick lor... Was feeling rather uncomfortable the entire Sunday. Keep feeling very tired. Then on Monday morning, I was down with fever and body ache all over. Super sianz.... I slept thru most of the day till bout 4plus in the evening before I went to see a doc. That nice doc gave me 2 days mc cause he says I probably won't recover with 1 day of rest. Doctors nowadays earning damn good bucks lor. That trip to see the handsome doc cost me $45. So damn ex! =(

Even though I was on mc today, I still went back to office in the afternoon. Firstly, cause I was feeling better and secondly, I was worried about the back log that will accumulate when I get back in on Wed. The reason was certainly not because I was hard-working. Haha! Jus trying to make life easier on myself. =p

My boss was really nice. On Monday night, he sms me a few times asking me to rest if I still wasn't feeling ok and today, he keep asking me to go home early. So at 7pm, I left. I had dinner at AMK before I proceeded back home to rest.

Oh... by the way, another of my friend told me she's getting ROM next year.... So many getting hitched. I guess I have come to the age of attending weddings after weddings.... Looks like I'm getting older.... Haiz.....

Hmm.... there goes another week tat zooms by so super fast..... Weekend especially, it's gone so fast. Now I have to start looking forward to the next weekend. Haha!

Friday night, we went to celebrate Eug's bday. We had dinner then watched the movie, "The Covenant". Eh... the actors good looking lah, but the show not very good. The movie was very rush and there's no anticipation at all. Quite disappointing.....

Sat was more interesting. Mr and Mrs Hoon Kim, gave us a lunch treat which includes Joei, Joy, Marcus and Jason. Due to a miscommunication, Janice did not join us. Joei and I had actually planned to order so much food such that when Sinta sees the bill, she'll go into labour immediately. Unfortunately, that didn't work. Lolx! But still we did had a lot of food. My god! I was so full the entire day that I didnt' touch much food after that. By the way, I realise another thing about the Kim family. They are really suited for each other cause, one loves to act (i.e: act surprise) while the other is a crappy scriptwriter. Hoon can really think of very good plot for future Channel 8 shows. Duh....

I slept early on a Sat night cause I had to work this morning. There was an arts camp happening and I was one of the facilitators. Gosh... I had to be at work at 8.30am on a Sunday morning. How exciting is that..... =( I was so damn stoned for the whole day lor. I made Jas fetch me to work, actually "made" is not the correct word lah. He happily sent me to work.... haha! before he went back home to sleep some more. Good life eh....

So then I'm back home again, typing away this entry. Tml my boss is giving us all a treat to movie at the Gold Class at Vivocity. Hehe! Means we can all go off at 5.30pm. Yippee!

*yawnz* nd to slp now.....

There are some people who are talented with words and there are some who have the gift to move with words. I guess she falls into the category of moving people's heart with her words.....

Each time whenever I read what she writes, it never fails to feel as if there are a hundred strings tugging at my heart. You can't help but feels how she feels. It's her talent at expressing herself with the wonders of words.

Reading her words over and over again.... I can't help but tears glisten in my eyes.....

Words of comfort I can't write. Mixed feelings in me I can't explain..... It always upsets me to see people go, especially people I knew...... though not very well, but I'm human afterall....

I keep feeling very wierd the entire weekend. It seems as though there are some things that I wanna say and do but not sure how I can get it out. Dunno if it's appropriate, dunno whether I should. When things and matters becomes on the fence and the line is blur, I feel lost....

I do feel for him.... Jus tat words of concern don't seems to be able to come right out. Hate feeling this way. Why can't I jus do what I want and be how I want it to be? Again, when things changes it changes..... It's back to square one. Haiz.....