I was watching a special report on the China earthquake just now and couldn't help but feel my stomach churn and heart throbbing and aching. The report was on the last 79hrs of a man who was trapped under the rubbles resulting from the earthquake.

While he was trapped underneath the heavey rubbles, he kept repeating that he cannot die for he still has a wife who just got pregnant. As time passes, while they are trying all means and ways to rescue him, we can see all the various reactions from him. He tries to stay awake by talking even when what u was talking doesn't make any sense.

Finally after 70 over hours, he was released from those god damn stones but he has lost conciousness. While on the way to medical point, he died....

I can imagine the heartpain of all who desperately tried to save him. He had given all the rescuers a hope. A hope that someone is gonna survive. A hope that yet another person has been saved, but that he didn't make it still in the end. At the side, we can hear a woman reporter crying, asking him to hang on. Asking him to wake up for he himself had said he couldn't die as he still has a pregnant wife waiting for him.

I.... I was half hoping he would wake up suddenly and say he's alright. Just like how drama serials or movies always show. But as I watched, I knew that is nt a drama or movie I am watching. What is in front of me is something very real in another country. So real that my heart felt part of it died when the man died.

I have been avoiding reading the news on the earthquakes for fear of how I would feel.. I know all around there are sad stories, sad true stories which I know I will be affected upon reading them. There was the reportas on the baby who was alive whom when they found the baby was suckling on her dead mother's breast. The last thing the mother could do for the baby. And those on how teachers hang on to their students even till their very last breath to save their lives. The rescue team was crying while they had to saw the hands off the teachers to get the students out. These reports......can really tear someone's heart apart.

I'm not sure why I feel the need to blog this down.... and I'm not sure what I am trying to express. Maybe this is how I can release the heartwrenching mood in me. And to remind myself that I am lucky or rather all who are able to read this that we are lucky. We are luckier than what the people are facing in China.

Though things do not go our way in life most of the time, but at the very least, we have a roof above our head, loved ones beside us, not affected by natural disasters.

Probably we shld reconsider the priorities in our life, and how we judge things. We are already better.....