Once in a while, I'll recall the things he told me before. Yet up till now, I'm still confused as to whether the feelings he said he had for me was true at that time.

I dunno why I insisted it was just a joke back then and chose not to believe it. However, part of me was hoping it wasn't just a trick played on me. I seriously wonder how things would have turned out, if we had taken things a step further.

Maybe then the relationship we have now wouldn't be as it is now.....
There are too many "what ifs" in life......