Emotionless

Ya... it's indeed surprising how calm I am.... I'm so calm till I feel scared too. For feeling so unfeeling... I seems to have lost all emotions.

The words kept replaying in my mind. I couldn't stop thinking about it.... It surrounds me and haunts me. I am clueless wat I shld do. All of a sudden, there's like a huge distance between us. There are so much I wanna say. Yet I dunno where to start. There's so many things I wan him to understand but I can't put it across....

Maybe we shld give each other some time to think things thru. But I'm afraid, time will only bring us apart even further and not heal like it's suppose to.

It's another sleepless night tonight......