有情人终成眷属

I'm so happy.... happy for a pretty bride. =)

Attended Esther's wedding just now. I must say she is one of the prettiest bride that I have ever seen. She already looks lovely on normal days, not to say stunning on this special day of hers. Her wedding is at Grand Shanghai. Very nice place with a very nice feel. There is even a lady who sings all the old old chinese songs the whole night through and she's real good.

The beautiful couple made a dramatic entrance or what we usually call as the first march in. They actually rode a Harley in to the music of "上海滩". Their 2nd march in was just as drama. Esther wore a short cheongsam and she held a feathery fan while walking around. Music of " Ja Jambo". Really to the mood ah. Their friends, brothers and sisters were all walking around dress to the theme oso. All of them was so sporting.

While they were on stage, doing their toasts and acceding to the funny requests like dance and kiss, I looked at Esther and couldn't help but feel my eyes starting to tear. Suddenly, I recall all the things that Esther, me and Shirley had done before. Like, rushing projects at my house, going out clubbing, taking photos etc.... Unknowingly, we had known each other for quite some time and went thru a stage of growing up together. It's heartening to know that she has found her happiness. Really hope for her to be able to be this blissful forever.... God bless.

Esther is another person whom I feel has the 傻人有傻福 kind. To me she is always a bit blur, but puts in a lot of effort and a with simple wishes in life. For such people, I always feel that God seems to save the best things for them. Among friends, Esther & Shirley have always been rather special to me. Maybe cause since young, I never had much close female friends. In sec sch, most of my friends whom I feel I can relate to are guys. in poly, other than Carissa, Esther and Shirley are the ones whom I feel totally comfortable with. They are nothing like those 小姐小姐pattern whereby a bit a bit oso not happy. They are always frank, without pretence. Hence, I have always hold high regards for them. Am just really happy that both of them are happily married. Next would be my turn......

Time passes.... we are all in our next stage of life..... let's all 加油 and life beautifully, happily ever after. =p

Me Still Alive

Haha! Did a disappearing act for a couple of weeks. Been lazy to update lah.

Other than lazy, I buzy oso lor. Busy watching, "命中注定我爱你". Another of those Taiwanese idol drama..... nice mah.... Like the storyline. But as usual while watching such shows, I'll always think to myself that, "In real life, dun have this kinda romance one lah". Lolx!

But still, I like to immerse myself in such a storyline, in the other world, once in a while. 人要有幻想吗。。。Hehe!

Other than watching show, been busy with work and the wedding lor. Haiz... very fast leh. Now Sept already. Another about 3 more mths or so and it's D DAY. Actually I can't wait for it to be over cause there's so much things to prepare, very tedious leh. And worse still, spend a lot of money. =p
Anyway, once it's done, it's like another tick in one of life's "to-do list". And it's time to move on to the next.....

Oh.... by the way, failed my driving test. Retake on 30 Oct. Hope i make it this time. =p

在我睡不着的晚上，还是会想，“他最近好吗？日子过得怎样？会不会寂寞。。。”

他偶尔会想起我吗？

我的 Tiffany

My this year's birthday present is also my first Tiffany!

Jas 心血来潮 decided to buy me my birthday present earlier. After my driving lesson, he ask me to go down to Orchard to meet him to choose. He say I can choose either a Gucci Bag or a Tiffany bracelet ( i hinted to have a bracelet for birthday this year, but i no mention Tiffany leh).

Of course the first thing that i went to see is Gucci lor. Saw a bag i quite like, but was over 1k. i find too ex so we went to Tiffany lor. He chose a Atlas serise bracelet but i scared will slip and drop very easily so in the end I chose their new series of charm bracelet. =)

The bracelet with the heart locket.

Kel oso bought one for Julia..... for her bday too. hehehe! After that, we went to eat at Gyu Kaku with Kel and Angela. My 2nd time there in the same week. I think I'm gonna stay away from so much meat for a while. But the pork belly is really yummy!

Happy Weekend for me! =p

At Clarke Quay drinking coffee with the usual gang

她说，“爱人也可以很寂寞。。。”

我想。。。 对的。。。 爱人会寂寞，因为没有人会了解有多爱。没有人知道那样的爱是怎样的爱。只有自己知道和明白， 所以寂寞。。。

This is wat I'm gonna work for

My sis took her driving test on Sat.... but failed....

Suddenly, I feel it won't be easy for me to be able to pass at first time also.....

BUT.... I want to pass fast. Cause I is damn like the Blue Swift. Went for servicing with Jac for her Swift Sport today. So went showroom to see the normal Swift oso. It comes with leather seat which is wat i want oso. I like... I like.... I wan! :/



Anyone wanna buy me? My final practical test in on 27 Aug 08.

寂寞。。。

为何寂寞？没有了陪伴，还是因为没有了爱情？
拥有的时候，就不寂寞吗？

还是在拥有的时候，想要更多，而失去了？

一个人，也许能让你更清楚你要的是什么。想一想吧。。。

p.s: I dunno if he will read the above. or rather i dunno if he will understand it at all. Lolx! but still, if he does, i hope he'll be able to get wat i'm conveying. =)

Just came back from an amazing wedding dinner. An eurasian style wedding dinner of Gerad & Aisha. Gerad is actually Jas' cousin. His dad is Chinese while his mum is Eurasian. And he married a malay girl. So the entire event is kinda interesting.

The wedding montage shows their Malay wedding which was held last week. The dinner started off like a typical Chinese wedding dinner even with the "Yum Seng" part. At the end of it was the interesting one. The part where the Eurasians love. Music and Dance!

There was a live band and they played all the 80s band music and Jas' relatives (including his dad) were dancing. All his aunties and uncles very sporting. At the sound of music everyone joined it. It's really a wedding that I've never attended before. Plus it's in the outdoors, it makes the entire atmosphere even better. The lights, the wind..... Everything. It's at Fort Canning by the way..... Super nice!

Oh... ya... of course the dance floor was "opened" by Gerad and Aisha, the star of the evening. So sweet!

Jas keeps saying this is the Eurasian style wedding so I suppose I might have to make provisions for it for ours too. But ours is on a Sunday, so there might not be a lot of people who would stay for the dance segment. Oh well.... see how the planning goes.

His relatives are all so nice towards me. They will keep asking me how I am, whether I'm enjoying myself etc. Endless praises also... hahhaa! There is really a very big difference being part of an Eurasion family. =)

Lastly, Congrats to Gerad & Aisha! =)

Another process of Wedding

As I am counting down to the wedding dinner this year end, we are getting stuff done along the way. Another thing that we have got done is our photoshoot. =)

I have always loved to see wedding photos and always thought that those shoots will be so fun. Finally last Thursday was my turn. It was so tiring! Smile & posing sure isn't easy. I keep laughing at Jas saying that day was probably the one day he smiled the most. Lolx!


When we got to the beach, he had to carry me and piggy back me. By the end of it all, I was tired with headache and Jas, tired to the max as well. Now, we just hope the photos turn out great!


Preview.....

Picture a bit blur. But i love this pic....

Me in my actual day gown. Getting ready for next set of photo-taking

Jas & Me in between shoots

My Favourite Gown

Jas took this while I was posing for the camera man, Eric

Waiting anxiously for the photos to be ready. Proabably end July, early Aug. =p

他们的主题曲

I just realise that I have come to associate songs with my ex bfs. That is to say, when I hear of a certain song, it will remind me of a certain person.....

That's Why You Go Away - Jacky
This song always reminds me of the time when coincidentally we both had a camping event in school. Somehow this song was always playing during that time.

情书 - Silie
I borrowed this CD by Jacky Cheung from him and probably that's when I knew him better and more than just friends

I Believe I Can Fly - Donny
For the obvious reasons that the song was for a cartoon on basketball and he seems to like tat song a lot.

When You Believe - Eddy
The song tat we both love from Prince of Egypt..... and more...

Amor Infinitus - Kelvin
Not sure why also. But everytime I hear this song it reminds me of him. Probably he played it a lot.

Come to think of it, there isn't any song that reminds me of Jas. Probably there isn't a need to be reminded of him since I see him almost everyday...... Maybe....

抱着他的感觉非常真实。。。。
我要这真实的感觉而不是那种在下一秒就会彻底破碎的希望。
踏实。。。 过得踏踏实实才是我的幸福。

另外一个他。。。
在我心里。。。
永远消失。。。

不存在

我已不再知道他是谁了。。。。

明明是如此靠近，却又是如此的遥远。心灵上的距离，比实际的距离差得更多，更多。多到我都不知道如何拉近我们两个人的距离。

失望。。。 很希望他有一个很好的解释。可是，怎么想，都不知道怎样的解释才算是好的。
不明白。。。 我不明白。。。

The whole thing sounds so unreal. Like in a dream.... It feels so wierd.

Jus wierd...

HIM

Even after these years, my attraction to him still stays
I still love to see him smile, see him laugh
Especially the mischevious glint in his eyes

I love the way he looks at me,
they way he touches my hair
And how he always makes me laugh

I had once been indecisive...
We haven't had it easy, but he has never back down
We had our share of pain and argument
But his words always seems to make it all right

He is the man I love...
He is the man I chose....
He is the man I walked down the aisle with....

I was watching a special report on the China earthquake just now and couldn't help but feel my stomach churn and heart throbbing and aching. The report was on the last 79hrs of a man who was trapped under the rubbles resulting from the earthquake.

While he was trapped underneath the heavey rubbles, he kept repeating that he cannot die for he still has a wife who just got pregnant. As time passes, while they are trying all means and ways to rescue him, we can see all the various reactions from him. He tries to stay awake by talking even when what u was talking doesn't make any sense.

Finally after 70 over hours, he was released from those god damn stones but he has lost conciousness. While on the way to medical point, he died....

I can imagine the heartpain of all who desperately tried to save him. He had given all the rescuers a hope. A hope that someone is gonna survive. A hope that yet another person has been saved, but that he didn't make it still in the end. At the side, we can hear a woman reporter crying, asking him to hang on. Asking him to wake up for he himself had said he couldn't die as he still has a pregnant wife waiting for him.

I.... I was half hoping he would wake up suddenly and say he's alright. Just like how drama serials or movies always show. But as I watched, I knew that is nt a drama or movie I am watching. What is in front of me is something very real in another country. So real that my heart felt part of it died when the man died.

I have been avoiding reading the news on the earthquakes for fear of how I would feel.. I know all around there are sad stories, sad true stories which I know I will be affected upon reading them. There was the reportas on the baby who was alive whom when they found the baby was suckling on her dead mother's breast. The last thing the mother could do for the baby. And those on how teachers hang on to their students even till their very last breath to save their lives. The rescue team was crying while they had to saw the hands off the teachers to get the students out. These reports......can really tear someone's heart apart.

I'm not sure why I feel the need to blog this down.... and I'm not sure what I am trying to express. Maybe this is how I can release the heartwrenching mood in me. And to remind myself that I am lucky or rather all who are able to read this that we are lucky. We are luckier than what the people are facing in China.

Though things do not go our way in life most of the time, but at the very least, we have a roof above our head, loved ones beside us, not affected by natural disasters.

Probably we shld reconsider the priorities in our life, and how we judge things. We are already better.....

今天心情有点郁闷。。。

虽然，早已知道会有这一天的到来，不过，在心里还是有小小的盼望会有一些转机。没想到，反而却还比想象中发生的还要快。

这个选择也许对彼此都好，可是，总觉得非常可惜。一段破碎的婚姻，是没有一个女人想要有的结果。Jas 说，“要离婚，就不应该结婚。”我说，“那里会有人预料到会要离婚的？谁都不想的。。。”

在要求完美的思想里，是不能接受一段不再完美的爱情。试过了，挣扎过，最后也许就只有放手是最好的？好难的一个决定，还是说出了口。痛。。。

有人劝说，“既然有勇气作这个决定，为什么没有勇气再从新开始？”我觉得，这是没有答案的。没有对错，这就是爱情最难的一个部分。

结束了。。。。。。。？

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On another note, I passed my final theory test. Have started taking lesson on Wed. One step nearer to getting my licence. Will be starting my position as Business Development Executive on Mon. A new role....... Exciting? Exciting.....

Taken by my new Camera Phone

Hehe! New phone! That stupid Nokia phone that i had been using dieded.... That one really machiam like toy phone leh. An entire piece of plastic just drop out. Damn sianz. One day gotta reset dunno how many thousand times.

Anyway, tat's Viewty I got! Like the camera and can do editing by writing on it. The only thing is I nt use to touch screen phone. So sms very super slow....

Well... till i get use to it then.

A Different Weekend

This weekend is exceptionally different and need a bit of getting use to. Why leh? Cause no more vehicle. Jas last day was on Thurs, so he returned the vehicle on Thurs as well. So this entire weekend, the both of us have to travel by public transport lor.

Hahaha! After so many years, Jas really need a lot of getting used to in taking, train and bus. Lolx! I didn't make it easy for him on Sat also when we had to go all the way to Peninsular Plaza to a tailor to custom make a suit for our wedding. Cause hor, Meow, Jac and Adrian just came back from Bangkok, and bought a couple t-shirt for us. I made Jas wear together with me on Sat. haha! it's nt really those super lovey dovey kind mah, so I feel quite ok. Hehhee! Angela help us take a photo while waiting for train at AMK.

After 25yrs.... my first time wearing couple tee... Last time always laugh at others.... but aiya.. for the fun or it mah. =p

Talking about the suit that Jas cusomt made... It was quite affordable. Hopefully it comes out good. Highly recommended de. At Peninsular, on the same level, there were many tailor shops but none was as crowded as his. Just waiting to be served, we had to wait for 1hr. But that tailor, Daniel, he gave quite good recommendations. Keep saying Jas got very nice V shape figure. hahahaa! And wanna do in cut to show off his figure. FItting is on 3 May, by then can see how it looks roughly le.

Date for my photoshoot has also been fixed le. Really looking forward to it. Can wear nice nice, take nice nice pic. Working very hard on dieting now.... Wanna lose another couple of kgs before the shoot. Like tat nicer mah.....

Tml is Jas first day at his new job, I pray he will be able to do well and cope with it. Like tat, everything will be smoother for the 2 of us.

大家加油！

She never thought she would be interested in a guy who is older than her by 10 yrs. Between the 2 of them, she does not feel that age difference at all. They communicate like regular friends who are able to joke and chat. She is impressed by his knowledge, his way of doing things and his quick reaction to solving problems. In a single word, "charming"!

Exciting affairs ahead!!!!!

2 May 08 - Final Theory Test
16 May 08 - First Driving Lesson (hopefully will pass by this year)
Jun 08 - Gown fitting for photoshoot
27 Jun 08 - Wedding Photoshoot
15 / 18 Aug 08 - Jas and my birthday
Sept 08 - Gen's Wedding
Nov 08 - Joei's Wedding
Nov 08 - Arrival of "twoori"
Nov 08 - Final Gown fitting
Dec 08 - Iris' Wedding
28 Dec 08 - Wedding Dinner
Jan 09 - Taiwan trip
End 09 - Hopefully can get our flat

Lots to hope for and look forward to...... Counting down.....

Wedding Preparations II

Went for final gown selection for my photoshoot today. It went very well.... I confirmed those gowns that I had chosen previously except for the evening gown. Tried another red one today and it looks so much better than the other one. Love it the moment I tried it on. Hehe! Have always wanted a red evening gown and so I got it.

Now that I have confirmed all my gowns I'm so excited bout the photoshoot and the dinner in Dec. Hope the effects comes out good.

Photoshoot will be most likely in end June or early July. By then most of the stuff for bridal studio side will have been settled. Then it would be left with the dinner.

Planning a trip to Taiwan for honeymoon after the dinner along with friends. Really looking forward to all these. Seems like it's a rather exciting 2008 for me. =)

Wedding Preparations

Went for my first gown selection appointment at Signoria today. It was so tiring but of course it's fun. Tried on so many gowns that by the end of it, I'm exhausted. I brought some magazines cut out to show them what kind of designs I like and also those of theirs featured in the mags that I like too.

Today only mange to choose the wedding gowns and KIV an evening gown. Still need to go back another time to select a gown for outdoor photoshoot. So I think there's gonna be another round of tiring selection. Lolx!

But hor... thinking back for the gowns I choose hor, not much colours in it leh.... Cause base on the choices i took today, I would have 1 ivory, 3 white gowns and 1 red gown. Like a bit too white on everything leh..... So maybe I should consider changing one of the white gowns to evening gown oso or something else with more colour. Need to call them to discuss tomorrow....

After the gown selection, we went to airport to send Angela off and also to check out the new Terminal 3. Had dinner at the Crystal Jade there where Jas saw that they serve char siew pau and ordered lots of it. Wah lau! I think in total we had like 4 or 5 servings of it. Each serving with 2 paus each. He say wanna go eat again when Angela comes back and we go fetch her. Char Siew Pau siao! hahahhaa!

Hmm.... probably the next thing that I nd to do now is to start sorting out the guest list, the jie meis whom I wanna use and prepare for the photoshoot which is most likely in end June. Exciting exciting! =)

Have got some photos that I haven had the chance to put up. Pictures of the night before my ROM. I probably mentioned it before. The night before "D Day", I was out with some very important people in my life. Friends whom I feel I have known them all my life. A friend whom were once close to my heart and who always will I guess..... A friend whom has taken a part of my heart with him. =)

From left to right: Samuel and his gf, Alex (Gen's husband to be), Gen, Me (looking rather red) and Eddy

Congrats to Gen, whom her bf proposed on the same day too. Now she's busy preparing to get married. She faster than me. Will be having her dinner in Sept. Congrats babe! So happy for you!

Gen and me at Balcony Bar. Fan blowing so hard at me while taking the pic hence the messy hair. Gen.....a friend like no others. =)

I is Happy.

Caught eating chickee wing. Haha! Gotta eat as I drink if nt i will get drunk de.

A nice picture taken, for fond memories......

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Question: How do you feel seeing your ex bf the night before you are married? How do you feel seeing your ex gf the day before she's married.

Answer: Wierd.... Happy.... Glad that all is ok now. We felt the bond.

SHE

Sometimes I find that she and me has a wierd relationship / friendship.....
Sometimes I feel that I can really connect with her and that we have build a close friendship, yet....
Sometimes I feel so far away from her. It seems as though she has her own world that I can't go into. A barrier seems to fall heavily between us.

Despite all the above "wierd" notions, whenever I think about her, or when I talk about her, my heart goes out to her.....

I feel her loneliness, her emptiness and at the same time her longing for love that she somehow cannot achieve. I wonder has she lost faith in love or just that the "one" for her is lost somewhere? Or maybe the love she lusts for, does not exist in this realistic, cruel world at all......

I really want her to feel happy if she can feel that at all. To be happy for herself, not only for others. I want her to be able to get out of a trap.... one that she has trapped herself in. I want her to be able to pursue her dreams, her wants and live out her zest for life which somehow I feel she can if she just want to. I know she has that energy and love in her that is waiting to burst out except that she doesn't know who, what or where it can go out to.

Perhaps.... taking that first step to step out is always the most difficult. But I hope she does....

Hey sister, I hope you know I wish the best for you. I wish you find happiness, I wish everything good for you! =)

Random Updates

Have been at my new job for slightly more than a month. Things are relatively easy to handle with not much probs. Getting use to life there. Not much places to go during lunch. Quite a number of times, it's tabao back by one of the warehouse staff so it gets a bit boring. On the positve side, I dun spend much as the food is cheap. And because I dun go anywhere for lunch, I spend lesser on unecessary things. Lol! Hope this helps in my plan for saving then.

I miss my days at TAH. Everyone there are so much more fun and atmosphere is more lively. Here, everyone just does their own stuff and I dun really communicate much with them. Perhaps I'm still new.... See how it goes ba.

Jas is thinking of switching to doing sales. He has got a offer actually. Most likely I think he will go for it. I feel it's better too cause seems more prospects. Benefits are better too. Hope he will be able to cope with it. For the first few months, things might be a bit tough cause his basic pay is a bit low. But in the long run, we have to bear with it ba..... Really wish all would be ok. =)

End of the month I will be going to Signoria to choose my gowns and take the first steps for the wedding preparations. Have seen a few designs I like in those wedding mags i bought and I cut them out as reference. So if I dun see anything I like off the rack I can custom make. Everything is rather troublesome and I just want to get everything over and done with soon and the next thing to look forward to will be the flat.

Oh.... had a crab feast at Sinta's yesterday. We had 5 gigantic crabs and couldn't finish it. It was really yummy but it was really too much! Lolx! Tried the Black Pepper Crab from the AMK stall for the first time and it's good. I like the spicy taste of the pepper cause it's spicy enough. Shiok shiok! We will be having tulang feast the next time round. Hahaha! All the high cholesterol food. I dun eat tulang but like to dip bread in the sauce.

Saw Yoori oso.... She can walk le! So cute! And she's one smart baby always knowing how to get the things she wants. Learning the ropes from her mum ah. This is called 有其母必有其女。hahahahhahaa!

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改变。。。 不知道是会比较好，还是不好。

My Internet Corner

I had to leave my Vaio on the floor each night while I sleep so I decided to set up a corner in my room for it..... With proper table and all.

So....... I thought of the pink side table i got from IKEA and....... TA DAH!!!!!!!

Absolutely Perfect!

Finally gotten my Sony Vaio after a long long time. Blogging using it in the comfort of my room. =p It's the Blazing Red one by the way. Wanted to get the pink at first but thought after a while might get bored of it plus it's too girl lor. If Jas wanna use it also might look a bit wierd isn't it?

Well apart from the new laptop, I have also started a new on a new job. So far it's been almost 2 weeks into it and well, all is good so far. Been going through product training and it's quite interesting knowing about skincare and the various ways or rather torture that women is willing to go through to beautify themselves. It's quite disturbing actually.....

Colleagues there are ok. No nasty ones so far although some seems to be rather lukewarm. I guess all things grow with time ba. I'm oso starting to get use to the timing of 9am to 6pm. I have been able to get up on time and I really enjoy the timing of going home exactly at 6pm and reaching home before 7pm since office is so near my home. I can even go home change and relac first before i go for my weekely mj session ah. Hehe!

Well.... more updates till later ba.... Gonna go figure out more of my Sony Vaio..... =)

做错了事，可以用一辈子的时间来补偿吗？
如果可以，是幸福
如果不能，是一辈子的后悔。。。

Thoughts.....

While he's watching the show with her, what will he be telling her? When the song plays , will she tell him the song conveys her feeling? When the song plays during the show where they show the couple dating do they think of doing the same? Does he think of me when they show it? Cause I do.....

I can't help but have those thoughts running through my head while watching it. I dunno why.... it jsut happens naturally. Somehow I can feel the connection knowing we both like the same song. Is this how things go when 2 people have truly bonded before and the bond stays forever? Or maybe..... I'm the only one who feels this way.......

Been a long long time.... this space here has been left alone for sometime since.... no updates except for the fact that I'm officially a "Mrs". Lolx!

Actually I'm super free since the ROM in Dec for the simple fact that I am jobless. But somehow just dun hv that "feel" to blog anything. Quit my job in The Arts House after long deliberation yet on an impulse and after feeling rather miserable for a while. Now have been sending out endless resumes and going for interviews, waiting for calls etc.

After going for a few interviews, I find it quite an experience, fun I would say. Each time while waiting for my turn it's like a new adventure wondering how it will be like. I like hearing the interviewer describing the job scope because they always make it sound so interesting and challenging but god knows it's not tat way. From wat they say, I also learn that what people in the positions do..... I also like to picture myself doing the job describe. I think I is mad le lah......

Many people has been asking me how's life as a married woman and I always answer "same lor." True mah, not much difference for me so far cause we not living together. The only difference is the introduction part lor. I still feel kind of wierd when I introduce Jas as my husband or when he intro me as his wife. But I think he quite proud to tell people he's married leh. The other day, we were at the coffee shop and he was buying ciggy. The coffee shop lady pointed to me and ask, "你的 ger fren ah?" He happily replied, "不是，老婆来的." I stood there smiling stupidly at the coffee lady, feeling so wierd. lolx!

Anyway, some random photos to see what I have been up to recently ba......

My farewell lunch by my ex colleagues in The Arts House. We went to a japanese restaurant at Marina Square and booked a room... Everyone was commenting like Yakuza meeting. Lolx!

Purple tulips and everything else purple. My favourite. My dear Cheryl and Shiuan got Lynne to order it secretly and gave it to me during my last staff meeting
The night before my ROM. Met up with Gen, Samuel and Eddy after attending Ying's wedding. Went to Balcony Bar for some drinks. Gen is one lucky woman. Her bf proposed to her the same night with 99 red roses and ring. She's busy preparing her big day to come. Everything else that night was great nice memory. No regrets on the day i got married. 心结揭开了 =)(Hehe! Flash too bright. My stupid Nokia phone lor)

This was on the day I met up with Cheryl, Ling and SK for desserts at 2am in Holland Village. We saw a waiter giving free dessert decorated with sparklers to another table cause it was the birthday of one of the person there and we were still commenting can we get it too cause it was near Cheryl's birthday. Suddenly, the waiter appeared with a same one for us but with the words, "Congratulations" Cause Ling had mentioned earlier that Jas and I are getting married soon while the waiter was taking our orders. But the sparklers died before the waiter could put it down so he ran back to light it and bring it over a 2nd time. Hehe!

Jac and friends organised a X'mas party..... BBQ.... Random shots!

My Grandma's birthday celebration. Jas attending the my first family's affair as my husband. hee~
That's it! Hopefully more eventful happenings comes along the way tat would spice up this boring blog of mine. Cheers~

I'M MARRIED!

After all the plannings and everything, the day is finally over in a flash.... As of now, I declare myself no longer of "single" status. Hee!

Thank you everyone who took the time to grace my big day! Special thanks to Ling for being my chauffer, Emcee and co-ordinator, Cheryl for looking after the event, Meow for being a free labour photographer, Angela and Jac for having spend time to choose my gown, The Arts House for the Venue, 1827 for the delicious makan and Signoria for the nice gown.

Lots more photos coming up but must wait till I have the time to upload everything. So one for the record first.....

最后一天的感言

今天。。。是我在 Arts House 的最后一天。心里有许多的感触。最难形容的，就是舍不得。在这短不短，说长又不长的一年多里，我尝到了从同事关系，变成友谊交情, 尤其是我的最佳伙伴，Cheryl。。。

我和她在同一天开始上班，踏入 Arts House 的战场，经历了许多开心与不开心，愤怒与快乐的日子。许多繁忙的工作，也就在她与 Ling Ling 他们的鼓励，帮助和欢笑中度过。每一个人，都不吝啬的在我需要帮忙的时候伸出援手。

有很多事，在我还没辞职之前，都不是很明显。只有在交了那辞呈后才发现，我与他们的认识，真的真的不是只有同事而已。我们几个，都有了无形的默契。知道彼此的喜欢与不喜欢，下一句对方想说的话。我也常常猜得到 Cheryl 的回应是什么。

我做过了好几分工，从来没有对公司的同事这么的依依不舍过。。。还没交上辞呈的时候，有那种破不期待的感觉，但是。。。 在我把那封辞呈正式的交给老板那一秒，我就开始有点后悔。因为我知道我们的“宴席”就要结束了。。。

我有很多很多“谢词”要一一的告诉 Cheryl, Ling, Nat 和 Lyn, 却因为太忙而还没那个机会。先在这里，向他们说声 “谢谢所有美好的回忆”

Cheryl - 你的无数四字真言，每一次都让我的脸上露出微笑。想尽所有能够跟你对上的字句。希望，我们还会有许多这样的机会。。。 你是我的 best "twin" 也是应该唯一的一个。=）

我祝大家永远快乐！

Another weekend...

Vivienne from Signoria (the bridal shop) called last week to say that she has got some new short gowns, ask me drop by their shop to try them on. I had fixed on one already last month but got new one leh... how can dun go and see rite?

So I went on Sat with Yenling and Jas. Saw a blue one very nice, but my only concern is that that the sofas in the Living Room (where I am having my solemnisation) are also blue! And I definitely don't want to look like part of a sofa lor. The 2 shades of blue are different lah but dunno leh. Vivienne very nice, say will loan me the gown for a day and I can bring it to see if it's ok with the sofas. Nonetheless, she will have a new purple one this week so I am suppose to go see again. I is fickle-minded. But bo bianz.... must choose the nicest possible mah. Hehe!

Sun I had to work so I came back to office while Jas and Eug went to Marina to shop for shirts. Jas needed a shirt to go with his suit oso. He tried on a white one at Zara which I liked a lot but he hesitated. In the end I suggested going Suntec, after I finish work, to check out what Raoul have. Saw 2 very nice one and he settled for one of them. Jas oso saw a pair of shoes there but too bad. It was the last pair and the sole is a bit spoilt so we gave it up. Eug saw a black shirt with very nice print there too but he 不舍得 buy cause it's a freaking $150 for it. He says he will wait a while more and if he sees nothing nice in the next few weeks then he come buy that. Nice things doesn't sit on racks for long, so hopefully when he wants it, they will still have it.

Hey.... Suntec got a new food court leh. I know I "mountain turtle" never eat there before. Only passed by once or twice. The decor of the place is super unique leh. Makes dining at the food court a better experience oso. Being "mountain turtle" of course I must take picture lah!

Old school feel of the food court - Food Republic

Dining in the middle of "books"

The nice tables and chairs used

The very expensive Dim Sum! All these plus 2 porridge for $32!!!! *faintz* Luckily it's nice.... :/

They even got like waitress in cheongsam like restaurants to clear tables leh! How innovative! Too bad I din get to take any pictures of them.

Yesterday was my off day..... Glad I'm off. Actually I wish I can off everyday. Starting to hate work. There's too much shit at work nowadays not to mention the word "MOSCOW" in front of me. I don't think I even want to go there anymore *argh*

Anway, I went to meet Sinta and Yoori for lunch at Great World before we head back to her place. Got an interview somewhere near her place (I wishing hard I get the job so I can get out of shit) in the evening so I just hang around playing with Yoori lor. She is as usual, mega cute. Just realise she is scared of bubbles. Sinta used bubble bath for her yesterday and Yoori refuses to sit in the tub. Think she scared bubbles will bite lah or maybe she is just wary of everything Sinta does for her afterall she always get hurt around Sinta. Hahahahahahaha!

Well then.... it's back at work today! Again..... "CAN'T WAIT TO GET OUT OF SHIT!!!!!"

Call it coincidence or whatever......

On my way to work this morning (late as usual), I was thinking about how I haven't seen him on MSN for a long long time. Probably due to the different timing we log on. Where got time to log on after work. By the time I reach home, so late already. Dun really feel like sitting in front of the computer any longer..... Was also thinking about having a get-together including Gen and Samuel on 28 Dec (before I'm officially hitched) for old times sake.

Anyway, when I reach office and checked all my email accounts, I saw that I received a msg on friendster from him asking me if I MIA and how am I? Coincidence? Lolx! Yes.... coincidence.... =)

Chat with Gen and Samuel online earlier and we decided tat it's a good time to meet up cause we can also celebrate Samuel's belated bday and advance bday for Gen. Shiok! Nice timing! Next question is to think where to go..... Can't wait wor...

Before I end off..... I permed my hair again...... Hehe! Miss curls... so pic for the record!

Stepping into the next phase of life

Wow.... I got a few major things done today. Took a day's leave and went to HDB to get a flat. After much balloting, deciding, arguing, contemplating and worrying, Jas and I finally settled down on a flat in Punggol. Far but... at least it's a new flat....

It was lots of waiting at the HDB. Send in application, filling up the forms, choosing the flat.... It's all the "adult" stuff. Everything feels so alien to me. I feel like a small kid running around and bumping my way through through the whole process. Lolx.

After that we went down to the hotel to confirm on our wedding banquet..... so it's fixed! We got the date! 28 Dec 08...... After our ROM it's gonna be another countdown to the wedding dinner.

OMG! I'm moving on.... sometimes it really scares me to me handling all these. Looks like it's no turning back... hmmmm....

有时候，我想。。。

是因为忙着太多事情所以不再想，还是已经完全放下。
真的是这样的话，那么并不是太难。

No updates for quite some time. hehehe. No time lah..... Been getting sick often and work. Hardly anytime left.

Ray and Ed has resigned and so we had sort of a send off party for them (plus it's payday). Lolx! Went to feast on crabs at amk. It was really good. Yummy to the max! Love the butter crabs and the crab bee hoon. Have been craving for the crabs each time I look at the pictures I took. Crazy!!!!

Other than the crabs, the other hot food for the day was 馒头. For our table alone we ordered 60 of them of which Nat and Cheryl finish like 15 each! We had to keep asking the staff for more. hehhee! Well... it's damn heaven ok... to eat the 馒头 with the butter sauce and the soup. Wah lau! I can eat it everyday hor if I no need to worry about waistline or money. Shiokz!

Oh.... did I mention that I went to try out my gown for "D" day and finally confirm on one. Really looking forward to the fitting. Got a pair of heels from taka to match it. Should be nice ba. Got take photos but decided not to put up the photos cause must be surprise mah. Lolx!

Went for a wedding show a marina mandarin on sun and I realise it's super good value to attend leh. We paid $28 for 2 person and we had lobster combi plate, crispy chicken, prawns in herbal soup, rice in lotus leaf and mango sago with ice cream. Worth rite? Hahhaa! Like some cheapos.... Must look for more wedding show to go ah... For the food only! =p

However we won't be considering marina mandarin leh. Too ex! Food is so so only... Just realise that I have to start booking hotels for the dinner next year. Like a bit late le. The dates Jas and I want a lot of them already taken. Din realise everyone so kiasu de. So I no choice lor... also gotta start making tentative bookings everywhere first. hahahahha!

After the wedding show, we went to Orchard to meet Kel, Julia and Angela to shop for other essentials like my heels, shirt and shoes for Jas oso...

While waiting for the rest to arrive, Jas got bored and he started playing my pink DS. I got bored so I started taking photos.......as usual....

And tat's all for the updates lah.... Hopefully life gets more interesting so that I have more to write about....

While I was slacking from work somewhere.....

Sunshine after the Rain

After the period of "pre-marriage jitters", depressions or whatever else you can call it. I'm finally more or less settled and at east.

Jas and I have finally booked our date for "D" day! Went back to the bridal studio yesterday also to check out more of their designs and chose one that is nice but simple. Nothing too elaborate. Now.... I am looking all forward to that day. =)

Lots of people went with me yesterday. The entire group of us lor... lots of opinions flying around and the lady was very nice to keep showing us the dresses. Jac and Angela was most helpful giving their comments making sure I choose the one I like most. They guys? haiz.... they dunno how to appreciate de. Lolx!

I ordered a earring rack and I got them on Friday. Went back home and started to hang my earring collection on the rack.

Ta Dah!!!! Nice nice!

I still got a lot of space left and that only means one thing.... Time to buy more earrings to fill them up. Hehe! I like earrings. The most simple outfit can be jazz up by just a pair of nice earring. It can be a simple one, a loud one or a wacky one, depending on how I wanna look. So yes.... I gotta get more earrings. hehehe!

Hmm... other than earrings... the next stuff I gotta hunt for would be heels to go with my gown and shirt for Jas. He also needs belt and shoes.... Seems like quite a lot of things required still. 3 more months... 3 more months.... =p

Another round of quarrel.... leading to more unhappiness.

As this carries on, I really wonder what it will lead to. Plans that were discussed for so long.... will it all be put into action or jus like before it will all *poof* disappear to nowhere.

Again, I sound as if I'm on repeat mode: "I'm tired...."

Emotional Rollercoaster

This couple of weeks, I seems to be on an emotional rollercoaster....feeling happy and good and the next minute, feeling all tired, unhappy and insecure. I have been getting easily irritable too. Wierd thoughts running through my head at random timings.

Lacking of proper sleep seems to make the whole situation even worse. It's not that I haven been sleeping. I have! Just that I'll only manage to get to sleep really late... or should I say extremely early in the morning. What makes it worse are the really wierd dreams that I keep having.

Are all these due to stress?

I know it can't really be coming much from work stress cause these few weeks hadn't been much projects at all. Maybe is this pre-ROM jitters? Or is it that I am having second thoughts? Is all these normal? I know Joei was still doubting her decision 2 months ago when she was about to be officially a "Mrs". And I was still telling her that she thinks too much and shld jus relax..... Now I totally can understand it.

Maybe it is a form of fear..... Afterall, I am taking a very very big step into next stage of life. Plus the road ahead seems kinda fuzzy.... Then again, am I the only one who is getting jittery? I wonder if Jas is feeling the same way but doesn't tell me or show it.

Just now when I was playing mahjong, I started to have a lot of thoughts. And it all just seems to envelope around me and I was totally lost in those feelings. I feel damn isolated from the rest. I had the strong thought that no one in this world understands me. I have the extreme strong urge to talk to someone about myself, about how I feel but I dunno who to call.
Suddenly, I feel so alone. Like as if, I am the only person.

Maybe I'm just tired... Physically and mentally.... Frankly, I really feel super insecure. I'm losing confidence in a lot of things. I feel myself slipping away..... and slipping right into this "depression mode" of mine. I desperately wanna snap out of it.... But I dunno how.....

I hate it whenever I feel this way.... Things stays at its lousiest for a long time. *sianz*

随着年龄的增加，了解的人情世故也越来越多。

明白了自己。。。对爱情不再相信有童话故事。最实际的爱情，是不美丽的。

我也不是什么公主。。。。。

Queen for a Day

So what did I do on the day I step into a quarter of a century of my life?

Basically..... it was a simple but heart-warming "celebration". As Jas had to work half a day, I took the time to laze at home before I went out to collect my R4 at Toa Payoh before I went down to Orchard shopping. Wanted to search for the Gucci lanyard that Jas say will buy for me but it was out of stock. Jas and the few others came later and we just shop around, buying snacks at basement of Taka, chill and joke before we went to our favourite BBQ steamboat place...... which is Dragon Village at Marina South.

On our way there, Meow called to say that the Nicoll Highway and ECP is jammed pack. Cause it was the Fireworks Festival.... See? So grand hor? My bday they put fireworks leh. Hahahhaha! Ownself! Anyway, we had to go till very far to make a U-turn before we can turn into Marina South. I was hoping to catch the fireworks while we were still on the expressway but aiya... they damn slow leh.... cannot see.

We only managed to see when we reach Marina South and yes! fireworks were very pretty. They always are. I like fireworks! It always makes me happy. That's why I always look foward to National Day and New Year's Day. =)

After dinner, we did the usual thingy of hanging around in the arcade lor..... see? That's y I say the whole day is really pretty simple but nice. I just like to hang around people and see all smile. Too bad Jac, Meow and Adrian were not here.

I received a card and angbao from the usual gang at The Arts House. They so sweet! Gave me a card that says, I'm the "Queen for a Day" all in glittering letters! And hor, it's a pop up card with a tiara in the middle leh! SCHWEET!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Some more say I am the 美女 of Arts House 之一. Wah lau! Hahaha! All in good fun lah. Thanks all!!!! I love you all! We are not just colleagues! hehe!

See? Queen for a Day!!!! Haha!

I place the tiara on top of the toy doggie that the mj kakis gave me and it looks like as if it's wearing it.... One thing though, it's now a gay doggie cause it's name is Maxine(i found a tag of the name it) Lolx!

Anyway, thanks everyone for all the lovely lovely presents! I even got a new case for my pink DS... and yes... talking about it. It's back to playing the games now!

*gone*

I'm 25!!!

And that's like a quarter of a century... haiz... getting older. Jas too.... He turned 27 three days ago. I got a nice surprise on Thursday. Those mj kakis, sent me a bouquet of flowers with a cute stuffed toy dog which looks like Toffee to my office. So sweet of them. Of course I must take pic to show everyone lah. haha!

Sunflowers... Cheery! =)

Joei, Sinta & Janice got me my favourite Kate Spade business card holder. Woohoo! Love it man. Been wanting to get it for ages. Love the pink inside the black. Professional yet funky. Hehehe! Thanks girls!

Not sure how I'm gonna celebrate this year... probably just keep everything simple... Just dinner. Sometimes it's the simplicity that makes everything more beautiful... Isn't it? =)

莫一天的谈话

"为什么你会喜欢我"？

"那水汪汪的眼睛咯"

"huh? 就因为水汪汪的眼睛"

"Uh! 到现在多还记得.....是在 Lentor.....

哇！好像漫画里的眼睛, 水水的...." =)

就这样，他爱上了我

做了一个很可怕的梦。。。。

It's not the first time.... This is the 3rd time I dreamt of him dying. The 1st two times wasn't so bad. Cause it seems rather comical like the alien's killing him and the other time I dun remember.

But yesterday, I woke up in the middle of the night for the first time panicking...... I dun remember the exact detail of how he died. I remembered I heard the news that he's dead and I went to the funeral. I saw his mum and Julia there.... crying. I was comforting his mum and crying hard myself. But somehow I could feel I was dreaming! I could feel myself trying to get out of the dream. It feels terrible and wierd.

Suddenly, I woke up! I realise I was indeed crying. I felt scared... very very scared and very unease. I wanted to msg Kel to tell him but then it was in the middle of the night. I sat on my bed.... lost for a while.... wondering shld I call him to check if he is alright. But I think I was scaring myself. I went back to sleep but just couldn't sleep properly for the rest of the night. 莫名其妙

I sms Kel to tell him when I got up this morning. He said I'm silly and says he's sorry for scaring me. Siao... also not his fault! People always says that dreams is always the opposite. I really hope so......

I have never woke up in the middle of the night so scared before other than when I was young and thought I hear ghost.... I is going mad?!

Over the Weekend

Dunno why but I always feel that weekends passes especially fast. It's like I haven even relac enough and *poof*..... it's gone and it's back to work.... Sianz.... Super mega sianz....

So naturally it's Monday Blues.... Blue Blue Monday. Had headache half the day. Probably it's the freaking weather. 一下子热，一下子冷.....

Friday as usual was mahjong night, my ever favourite game. But ever since I game the 13 wonders, my luck has been unaturally bad. Maybe it's like what people say, "the curse of the 13 wonders"! duh.... But luckily this time din really lose badly. Sat again I played mj cause very 难得 Jac jio mj. Of course must play lah. This time luckily I manage to win $5. Hehe! At least din lost I very relief le. 牌也来得很美. =p

After the mj game, Jas came to pick me up to go fishing. We went to this place in Punggol lor... quite a lot of us. But throughout the whole night we only manage to catch 1 "thing"

Hmm.... let's check out, what they got

They are all hovering over it

What's that?! Its running away!

And finally.... Gotcha! Hehe!

And yes.... throughout the long nite of mosquito bites, we only got a crab. lolx! But better than nothing lah.

Jas & me posing for the camera when we got bored

Basically, that's it for the weekend lor. Nothing spectacular. Oh yes... I just called the solemniser today. It's actually Joanne's bro-in-law and so I got him confirmed. Another thing settled for the day. =p

Lastly, a nice picture to end of.....

There have been a whole shitloads of things happening recently. Other than work, work, work and more work, I have also been making preparations for "the day".

I went to check out a few bridal studios before Jas and I decided on Signoria. I love their special effect photos..... so fantasy and so fairy tale like. I hope the effect turns out the same leh. The lady oso ask me to try some gowns and evening gowns other than the cocktail dress. Service quite good and I is happy. =) Jas has oso choosen his suit. White.... Nice!

For now, I still lack heels, guest list and confirmation of the food menu. Other than that, everything pretty much settled. Cool.... Really looking forward to the day..... *sigh*

Updates!

Haven updated much recently.... Been rather lazy to.... Hehe!

A couple of things have happened lah just dun hv the urge and time to state it all out recently. Maybe I'll just do it as a random list lor.....

- I watched Transformers already. I like I like! Last time when I watch Transformer cartoon I was so young I dun really have any recollection of it. But when I see Optimus Prime I do remember the red and blue. Good show. I dun mind watchin again!

- I played mahjong and I game 十三幺! It's a big deal to me ok.... Cause it's my first time hor. hehe! I game with the "bird" that Eug throw. They say game 十三幺 very unlucky de. Not sure how true. =)

- I got my Phoenix Wright game for my DS lite le. Cannot stop playing ah... Lots of investigation to gather lots of clues. Fun!

- He added me back on Friendster. haha! Very random I know....

- I got bonus!!! So I rewarded myself with a Loewe bag. A nice casual one lah. Bought it at a good discounted price....

- I like this new nokia phone N76. Wanted to buy with my bonus de but I chose the bag over it. So maybe next month lor.... The red very nice leh. Got mirror at the front some more de.... *lust lust* hehe!

- Oh.... sad news.... One of our working partner passed away. He was a very nice guy.... He'll be missed....

I think pretty much that's all lor... Hope I'll update again soon.

如果我的人生可以像一个blog，不要了就delete再重写。那该多好。。。